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     — "park jimiiiiiiiin! open the goddamn door, you bitch! the train is already leaving!"

     i ignored taehyung and continue scrolling on his profile. i bit my finger while looking at his recent post captioned as "hyungs~" with a smiley emoji. he's with some guys— his hyungs basically.

     "fucc! park jimin, i'm going to kill you!" he bangs the door and nothing comes after. okay. that's enough. i grab my keys and pull my luggage. i open the door and the furious taehyung is talking to yoongi.

     "wha–" i throw my car key to him. "and now you'll make me your driver? how dare you."

     "let's go." i lead.

"we missed our train, jimin. you ruined the trip. you're so selfish!" taehyung quickly pass by me and i stop, watching him walking away.

"jungkook is fine, he's very fine. dont you think you should be fine too? you pushed him away, you shouldn't be the one miserable right now." yoongi said behind me. tears came, nearly escaping my eyes.

i know that. i know that i pushed him away and pushing him away is much more complicated than i thought it could be. i concluded, but my conclusions were above the right answers. they were too much, too painful and unbearable. i made decisions that punished me even more.

"what will i do now?" i ask as i bow my head. i stare at my bag. i dont want him to be gone in my life forever.

yoongi came to my side, "i can say that he really loves you." i look at him as he turn his head to look at me too. "he won't do what you want if he dont. but jungkook is jungkook. he wont last long, he's impatient. but it's also up to you. either you wait for him or you'll be the one to take the first move."

     it was almost noon when we arrived at Ilsan. i was sleep in that three-hour trip. yoongi drove and tae was beside him. i stayed at the backseat because yoongi will get sleepy if i'm in front. i dont feel like talking for today.

     i was mesmerised by the view from the balcony of my room when my phone beeps for a text message. it was from yoongi, informing me to go down for lunch. i frown. i'm not hungry. i dont want to eat.

     i go back inside and sit on my bed. this is supposed to be a shared room of tae and i though he's still angry at me. he shared room with yoongi either and i'm left alone again.

     i sigh and embrace my knees to my chest, putting my jaw on them. i dont want to be alone like this but me, myself dont want to mingle with them too. i don't understand myself anymore. it is much confusing than my feelings for him.

i once again fell asleep and woke up at five in the afternoon. my stomach growls in emptiness. i haven't eat since yesterday even if i didn't go to work. i decided to go out now. i quikly look for places to eat because i badly need it right now. my head is aching too and my vision is swirling slowly.

i felt my body lost its energy as everything went black.

"when will he wake up?"

"the doctor said his body lost too much energy and his gonna take days to recover his strength. he'll soon wake up, he will."

i heard murmurs from two male voices. they were familiar. i heard his voice but as i tried to open my eyes, they cant. i'm still sleepy.

"jiminssi, wake up..."

his lips contacted to my knuckles. soft skin is now put on the back of my hand that is intertwined to his. i somehow manage to hold him back before i force my eyes to open.

his shock expression came first to my vision. he stand up and move his face near mine. his eyes roam on my face as i felt his tight grip on my hand.

i watch him like i used to. he's kinda amaze, he didn't even say a word. his other hand came to cup my cheek then caress it.

"hyung..." we made eye contact. he move closer and closer then tilt his head a bit.

"i'm hungry." he stops. "i'm sooooooo hungry." i whispered in his face, making him put a sly smile.

"eat me then."

"eat yourself." i rolled my eyes. still the same gukie. he proceeded in kissing my... forehead.

"i'll be back. gonna call the doctor and get you something to eat. wait for me." and i watch him walks out of the room.

the doctor came with joon and jin-hyung. he checked me then tell some reminders and one of them is to never skip any meal. he says that i have an acute gastritis. jin-hyung cringed when he heard it, like i was really a bad, bad boy who don't listen to his momma. wait—

"your mom came. she just need to go home for now because of your little brother who just come home from his dorm school." i nod to him. he came beside me and sit. "jungkook took care of the project for the mean time. i let him because it's his field too. i may take him officially after he graduates."

"if he'll choose you." jin-hyung said as he approaches us and put his arm over hyung's shoulders.

i look over the windows. Glimmering lights contacting to its glasses, shining for the dark sky. it's already night i think. "what time is it?" i asks while still looking there.

"midnight, one in the morning. saturday." saturday?

"you just slept for two days."

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" until when will you stay? "

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