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— "eat more." he commanded as he scope another spoonful. he's making me puke. i ate three full meals already!

     "stop. i'm done." i shove his hand away. i move back and lean on the wall as i fix my blanket.

     he sighs. he put back the spoon on the plate and place them on the movable table. i watch him sit beside me then pull me in a hug.

     "dont get sick anymore after this please. it drives me insane looking at you lying on this damn bed. i hate it. so much."

     i pulled from the hug and look at him, directly in his eyes. that makes my heart flutter ...and flutters even more when i saw how worried his eyes are. jeongguk, you really make me crazy.

     my hands cup his handsome face. he closes his eyes and leans to my touch. he kissed them and i almost melt when his lips formed a smile. "cute, little fingers." i frown. "but you're the cutest, baby chimchim." i felt my cheeks burn reds. omyghad jeon jeongguk. the nickname is as cute as me!

     "hyung!~~" i push him off the bed.

     "fucc!" jeongguk hissed when his butt met the floor. he immediately stand up when jihyun came rushing near my bed and squeeze my face in between his hands.

     "chiyhon–"

     "hyung, i thought you're dead! the car would be in my arms now if that happens so dont okay?" look at this brat. i rolled my eyes at him and remove his hands on my face. it hurts!

     "i want to talk to jimin, please." i look at mom with curiosity. she's looking at jeongguk right now and i dont know what expression she has right now. neutral? blank? whatever.

     "what's wrong, mom?" jihyun left the room and mom came to my side where jihyun was.

     "i'll be outside." i froze at how his voice became cold. did i hurt him that bad? i watch him leave the room until he closes the door.

       my gaze came back to mom who's already looking at me or more like she's watching my moves. "why?"

      "jungkook will graduate next month." she said. i think for a second. what is this all about now?

     "hmm, i know that."

     "same degree as you."

     "uh huh. he's great."

     "he'll be as successful as you. or maybe higher than yours."

     "i know he will. i'm already proud of him."

     "but you don't know that he's been absent in school for a week and he may be eliminated for being one of the top students, jimin."

      he's been absent... he may be eliminated... top students... i stare at her, she's so serious. so these are all about?is she...? i did not comment.

     "mina was so worried. he didn't go home and it's almost two weeks since he left their house with the reason that he's sleeping over at your place." he was... but i pushed him away that night. we messed up. "she thought she's at your place all the damn time but then the school informed her three days ago that jungkook isn't coming to school for how many days." i know it's my fault. but at least she should have ask me. we could have him back earlier.

     my sight soon gets blurry. i blink many times just to stop it. why am i so emotional when it comes to that boy? do i really love jungkook now?

     "he likes you. i knew it from the time you two met. i saw it in his eyes. i let it go since i also know that you will not tolerate him." i know her point already and i dont want to listen to her anymore. but i also want her to slap me that point. i also want to hear it so i can decide..

     "then i saw him again. sitting right here, asleep with his arms clasped on yours. i let it go again because i thought this is an unrequited love– but it wasn't!" her tears fall as mine too. "as we enter this room, for the third time, i saw his eyes..." she controlled her sobs before she continues. "i saw how his eyes look at yours and yours to his. jimin, you cant..."

     i shake my head as tears gush down. she has no right to tell me that. no. "i love him..." that's it. i said it.

     "you know what will happen if you keep your relationship, jimin. you won't like it. so please, for the both of you... just let him go."

     "fUCC, NO!" not this time. no, not anymore. whatever happens i'll keep him by my side. i will never push him away again.

     "jimin, you'll marry a girl! you're not a gay–"

     The door flew open. furious jungkook enters the room. but soon, his expressions soften when he saw me. he rush to me and hug me. tight. i cried on his chest as he caresses my back and hush me.

     "please leave, mrs. park." his voice was as cold as ice. he's mad. my jeongguk is mad. i tighten my hold to his chest.

     "you should be the one to leave. you need to go home, jungkook."

     "he's my home!" i hug him to calm him down. he's shaking. can she just go? i hate her so much.

     "you'll soon regret this." i heard her steps walking away and how she closed the door so loud. she's a bitch. i dont want to talk to her anymore.

     he let out a deep sigh. he stops shaking as his hands are back to my back.

     "no one can come between us, i promise."

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" i loved you. "

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