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Chapter 29: Love

Chapter 29: Love

Christian's POV

Dear Christian,

I'll start off by saying I'm extremely sorry. By now I'm sure you're extremely confused and wanting to know what exactly is going on. It is true. I've left Seattle. Please… don't search for me, if you love me and trust me do, you won't. I will come back, I promise. And... I love you. So very much. One day you will understand.

Your Ana x

What is going on? First, I get a call from Sawyer informing me that Ana has 'fooled' him and left. He also informs me that she wrote me a letter. I scan the letter over and over again, trying to find a clue. Trying to figure out what the hell is going on. Is someone threatening her? Is this a joke?

I pace back and forth in my study, the letter tightly clutched in my fist. She said that I shouldn't look for her if I love her and trust her, but how can I not? It should be the opposite, if you love someone, then you do everything in your power to look out for them and take care of them.

I read the letter once more. There should be something, anything to indicate to what exactly is going on. She says she loves me, so that rules out the possibility of her cheating. She is sorry for what she is doing, so at least I have the assurance that she knows what she is doing. And she left Seattle that means she isn't in the city. Maybe out of the country? Unlikely, she doesn't even have a passport.

She wants me to stay away. It seems clear that this is a calculated move for her. With that thought in mind and with a heavy heart, I leave my office and come face to face with my staff, who are anxiously waiting for instruction on what to do next.

"Don't look for her", I say firmly.

"But… sir...", Sawyer stutters.

"I said no, and that's final", I say and turn to leave.

I gave you one chance, Ana... please, for once, do as you say you are going to. Please come back soon.

"Christian?"

I wake up with a jolt and blink rapidly as I focus on my surroundings.

"What are you doing here? Do you need something?", Ana whispers as I look at her quizzically.

But then I remember. I blink my eyes as they take in my surroundings. I'm at the hospital, Ana's room. She was asleep after the nurses came to run some tests and I came to check on her. I don't remember dozing off.

"Um...", I start to say as I clear my throat, trying to get the sleep out of my voice. "How are you feeling?"

"I'm not going to lie, I'm anxious", she whispers and I hear the fear in her voice.

I get up from the chair I was sleeping in and cup her face in my hand. "Try to not be. I'll be right outside you know that, right?"

"Yeah", she says as she bites her lip. I trace my thumb over her lower lip, freeing it.

"Also, Mia and Ethan told me that they can babysit Mila for the time being... if that's okay with you?" to which she nods. "Hey, everything will be fine, okay?", I say and hug her.

Today is Ana's first surgery and I'm not going to lie, I think I'm more scared than Ana. I can't loose her again. Also, what are the odds that I dream about when she left me the same day her first surgery is scheduled?

"I brought some food!", Carla chimes when she enters the room. I take a step back to give her room.

Carla has been the distraction from reality that we all have so desperately needed.