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Dead Memories

Dallas drove into abbeys driveway and came into the house. He came over to me and tried to grab my hand. I just growl and move around him and go into my old room. Dallas followed after me.

"Lucy why didn't you tell me about you being raped when you where younger?" Dallas asked closing the door behind him.

"It's not Lucy. It's Celeana." I growl with my back towards him.

"Why did you change your name?" Dallas came up behind me and put his hands around my waist. I push away from him.

"I like the name better then Lucy." I grow and look at him.

"Still. Why didn't you tell me about that?" Dal asked.

"Because I thought I got over it but I guess I didn't. When you used that toy it all came back to me." I look at him.

"Baby. I'm not mad." Dallas came up to me again.

"I know you're not mad. I didn't mean to freak out. I just didn't want that memory to come back. They are dead memories." I growl and step back from Dallas.

"Celeana . I want to help you." Dallas hugged me.

"I know." I wrap my arms around Dallas.

"Please talk to me about this stuff." Dallas whispers in my ear.

"No." I mumble into Dallas's chest.

"Abbey says that she has your pills that I have to pick up." Dallas pushes me away from him so he can look at me.

"I don't like them." I mumble.

"I know baby but they help you." Dallas kissed my head and walked out of the room and into abbeys office.

I walk out of my room and into the living room.  I see that Jay is still on the floor in smacking the floor trying to get the wine back.

"Stop crying over spilled wine. Abbey has more." I say to Jay.

"But I liked this one. It was. G..........O........D milk. It was god milk." Jay yelled.

"Shut up." I go into the kitchen and get some water and come back out into the living room with a glass full of water. I poor it over Jay's head. He cry's out and grabs my legs and knocks me down. He holds onto me and makes me clothes get all wet because he pulls me into the Puddle of wine and water. "Get off me your gay cunt." I yell.

"No. I'm your gay cunt." Jay yells and lays on top of me.

"Faggot face." I smack Jay across the face.

"Cunty assassin." Jay yells and slaps me in the boob.

"You fucker. I can kill you if I please." I growl and push on Jay.

"No. Don't leave me." Jay starts to cry again.

Just then Zack walks in and looks at us on the floor. "Hi." I mumble and push Jay off me.

"I don't get how he finds you attractive." Zack says and pulls Jay off the floor.

I watch Dallas and abbey walk out of her office. Dallas came over to me and put his hands on my waist and pushed me to the door. "Celeana. I don't really want you to be driving but it's up to you." Dallas said as we stood next to his car.

"I'll be fine." I look over at the house. I could see Zack picking Jay up off the floor.

"Ok. Are you going to go home?" Dallas put his finger under my chin and made me look at him.

"Right now yes. For how long I don't know. I need to talk to Jay when he's not drunk." I say looking up at Dallas.

"Did you get him drunk."

"Yup." I say with a smirk on my face.

Dallas just smiled and kissed my head. "I'll see you at home.

"Ok."I mumble and go to my bike and get on. I get my helmet on and take off down the drive back to our house.

I get home about an 2 hours later. Dallas pulls in behind me as I park in the garage. I pull my helmet off and go into the house. I go into the living room and sit down. Dallas walked in a few minutes later and sat down next to me. He put his arm around my shoulders and kisses my head.

"Why did you get Jay drunk?" Dal asked looking at the tv.

"Because he would call Zack and Zack would come get him." I say as I lean into dals shoulder.

"Okay." Dal rubbed my arm as I fall asleep.

I wake up around six at night. I mumble and get up. "Where are you going." Dallas asked.

"I need to go talk to Jay." I go out the door and onto my bike. I drive to Tony's gym and see Jay walking out of the gym.

"Jay. We need to talk." I walk to Jay.

"Oh. Hey Celeana. What do you want to talk about?" Jay says as he stops and looks at me.

"About Zack." I say walking to a little maid café.

"Okay." Jay mumbled and follows me into the café.

We sit down at a table and Jay gets a tea. I get a  Frappe.

"Why did you want to talk about Zack?" Jay asks.

"You need to know about someone. About a woman." I say leaning back in my chair.

"I'm gay." Jay said as he takes a sip of his tea.

"I know fairy. But a lady made Zack the way he is.  She was abusive to him and made him the way he is. And then there was another woman. Zack was a dominant to her. And he showed his real dominant self. He put her through hell. You have lots to learn about satis. One thing is though the submissive gets pain they also gets get pleasure out of it." I mumble and take another sip of my drink.

"Oh. Ok." Jay looks down at his drink.

"You should talk to Zack about what you like and don't like." I stand up and grab my cup. "I have to leave. I'll talk to you later." I walk out of the café with my drink.