Mixed Signals

Chapter 11:

You wanna know what hurts so much? It's when someone made you feel special yesterday but then makes you feel like you're nobody today. Zane was never supposed to mean this much to me. I was never supposed to fall in love so hard. But you know what? I did and that's where things fell apart at. I should have listened to my friends. Well at least Hayton. It's funny about those friends who have your back and will do anything for you. Except for breaking your heart and friendship. I thought Mikala was that. It's hard to trust somebody when the one person you completely opened up to is the person who completely betrayed you. As I sit at a table for lunchtime, I notice my once ex best friend sitting with Crystal and Zane at their table. Laughing and glaring at me. I want to go to that table and beat all their asses so bad. Then Mikala says something to them and all of them look at me and start laughing. . But not Zane. I don't know why he's not. He is just as fake as all of them. Also you wanna know something else? I hate it the most when people say they dislike someone and they don't like that person yet you see them go and hangout with them. Isn't it pathetic how we waste so much time on certain people and in the end they prove that they weren't even worth a second of it? Then I look up and see my best friend Hayton walking towards my table. "Hey Ari. What are you writing?" "A story. I'm almost done though. It's probably nothing." "Oohh! What's it called?" "I don't know yet." "Let me know if you need help with anything okay?" "Okay. Thanks Hayton. For everything and having to steady deal with me. I mean it." "No problem Ari. That's what friends are for." "What about that's more than friends are for. I did a lot of thinking Hayton. And Hayton...you are the only one who has been there for me and I was so blind to see it. Even though I yelled and you, tried to fight you and rejected you for snowball, you were still there for me and didn't leave me. Hayton... I don't want you in my life I need you in my life. You are not my friend, you are my best friend. I don't like you, I love you! And I'm so glad I found you because I was absolutely lost without you!" "Aww come here Aria." It felt so good to be in his arms. That's when I realized what a true friend was. Someone who would always love you-the imperfect you, the confused you, the wrong you-because that's what people are supposed to do. 

What is life. Life. Life is kind of like a party. You invite a lot of people. Some leave early, some stay all night, some laugh with you, some laugh at you and some show up really late. But in the end, after the fun, there are a few who stay to help you clean up the mess. And most of the time, they aren't the ones who made the mess. Those are your true friends in life. They are the only ones who matter. As I look at the picture of me and Hayton and then me and Zane I say to myself...

IS MY EYES ON THE HANDSOME, CHEATING ZANE OR MY BEST FRIEND AND NOW MY CRUSH HAYTON?

WHO DO I LOVE?