Alone

Not Dead, Not Alive

Death.
A word that does not seem as lonely as i think it might be.
A new beginning.
Better than life.
Strength,
Happiness,
Speed,
Amazing senses,
And amazing reflexes
I am not dead but i am not alive.
I thought to myself as i ran through the forest.
I also thought about how much had happened within a couple of months. I graduated high school, I lost Westley because he left and went to paris to design great fashion. I get calls from him here and there but not as much as i wish. I learned so much about my family i had never known. Johnson and I became boyfriend and girlfriend, and the lonliness that was always in my heart began to fade in time while happiness replaced it. After i was hit by a car about a week ago after getting kidnapped Johnson saved me once again. He saved me not only from myself but from the whole situation. When Nick bit me it began to change me. I was slowly turning but when i reached the peak of the change i was in so much pain. I would not know how i would've controlled it without Johnson. It was so painful i had to stay locked away so i would not attack anyone.
Johnson and i played for hours on end running after eachother. We played games like who could catch the most squirrels. We had stopped to rest because I began to feel weak considering i had nothing to eat since my change.
Johnson came closer. He steadied me.
He pressed himself to me and leaned down to kiss me. I was lost in his kisses, in his touch, in the sound of every movement we made. He made me feel things i had never felt before. He kissed me deeper and deeper with every touch and kiss fire ignited within my chest. I could not get enough of him. He layed me gently on the ground and layed over top of me. He kissed down my neck. He slowly lifted up the shirt i was wearing and took it off. He continued to kiss me and kiss down my neck all the way to my naval. I wanted this. I wanted him and the emotions only became srronger so i let him proceed. I could not stop him and i did not want to stop him nor the feelings burning inside of me. I had fallen completely and absolutely head over heels in love for my vampire boyfriend.
Now i know i will never be alone again living immortally with him.  I have everything i need and want. I have love, security, happiness, and i am not alone. I have him.