Serendipity || DONGJUN

Parties

Youngjae and Junhee sat in the cafeteria waiting for Hoseok and Byeongkwan. Junhee was silently eating his soup while Youngjae was glaring at him. "You're hiding something," Youngjae said still glaring. Junhee looked up from his soup.

"What do you mean?"

"You're hiding something from us," Youngjae repeated.

"What? No."

"Yes, you are, but I'm not going to force you to tell me or the rest if you're not ready."

"Something weird happened, that's all," Youngjae shifted in his seat very interested in the weird event.

"What happened, if you don't mind telling me, that is."

"I was walking by the back alley near the mall, you remember that one?"

"Yeah, the one where someone gave you $5 and told you to buy yourself something pretty?"

"Yeah, that one. Anyway, I was walking by it and I ran into Donghun again, not literally, and then he invited me to a party and I rejected then he said he'll be at my place at 9 pm tomorrow, well today."

"That's the weird thing?"

"Yes, but why would he make me go to a party?"

"I don't know," Youngjae felt content that whatever was bothering Junhee was now out. Youngjae took a bite of his rice while Junhee finished his lunch. Hoseok and Byeongkwan joined them with an extra guest, Jaebum. Jaebum took a seat next to Youngjae and Junhee looked at them weirdly as they flirted with each other, being extremely obvious. He can't be...

No matter how many times he has told his friends that he's starting to think being gay is okay he can't find himself to actually believe it. He can't help but find it weird, it's how he was raised it was practically programmed into him. He used to read the bible every night before bed and every morning before school, he has finished the book five times, he didn't want to read it anymore, he could probably recite the whole thing forwards and backwards. He strongly believed the bible was right, homosexuality is a sin. The bible says man and women, so that is what's right.

Junhee excused himself and went to the bathroom and splashed his face. Why were his friends gay? How could they commit such a sin? Junhee stared into the mirror, he was ready to cry. They couldn't possibly gay, they don't act like how the priest and his father said they act, they don't look gay. How?

Junhee stepped out of the bathroom and ran into his friends. "Hi, Junhee," Hoseok smiled Junhee gave him a demure smile then walked off to class again. The rest of the day he avoided his friends for the rest of the day coming up with the excuse "I'm busy, I have a lot of homework," although that was true. He did have work to do but it wasn't due any time soon. He just felt like he needed to think about somethings.

His parents, friends at church, priest, tell him homosexuality is wrong, God says so. But his friends; they tell him differently, and so does his heart, he just doesn't know it yet. He's scared of what will happen if he does recognize it and accept it, so he chooses to ignore it. His parents say homosexuality is a choice, but his friends say otherwise. If homosexuality is a choice why were Byeongkwan and Sehyoon acting like that in the mall and why were Youngjae and Jaebum flirting? Why would he choose to do that? He didn't understand. Junhee was so frustrated, his friends who he trusts with everything in him tell him it's okay to be gay but his parents who raised him and he loves with all his heart tell him it's wrong and homosexuals will go to hell. He was so conflicted and confused, he needed time to think.

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Junhee wasn't planning on going to the party Donghun invited him to, he hoped Donghun wasn't going to come, but he knew he would cause Lee Donghun has done everything he said he was going to do. And now Junhee was here. Sitting on his desk chair staring at his closet. Junhee eventually got up aggressively and got into a plain white t-shirt and those new pants he bought with Byeongkwan (his parents hate them with a burning passion) then put on a random pair of shoes he found in his closet. He looked in the mirror and put on some lip balm and fixed his hair a bit. He looked at the time on his phone and saw Donghun should be there soon. He had about 5 minutes, he looked out his window and Donghun was already there, he was at the end of the street.