Fate |l.h. AU|

"Hey Sammy"

Gray’s POV

            When I entered the hospital I first noticed a crowd of nurses and doctors around the ICU, automatically my feet began moving myself towards the crowd of people I was almost there when I felt two strong arms around me, I started to thrash around wanting to be right by my almost sister but the arms holding me back wouldn’t let me move. Eventually I gave up and leaned into the boy holding me back. After a few seconds I saw Jason walking towards me and getting further away from the ICU. Then I realized that he wasn’t the one that was holding me back, I turned around to see mystery boy holding me, I hadn’t been that close to him before and just now was I realizing that he was absolutely gorgeous, his eyes were even more mesmerizing up close and his lips seemed so… so…. So… amazing all I wanted to do was talk to him and see his lips curl in the most beautiful way.

            After what felt like forever I heard a gentle cough come from my left, I turned and felt the mystery boy let go of my and I felt like there was something missing, but I pushed the thought away and paid attention to Jason. And within seconds my world came crumbling down.

“She tried again…” S- She tried again… I couldn’t handle this. I fell to my knees and I felt the tears come back, right when I had began to feel almost okay, God decided that I didn’t deserve that. For the next few minutes I stood there looking at Jason as he explained what happened. I however wasn’t listening, I just stood there with thoughts racing through my head. I have officially lost my best friend in a matter of a week I lost my best friend, the person that knew everything about me. The one that I had spent basically every day with, the one that went camping with me and did everything with me. we learned to swim together, learned to ride a bike together, I helped her through her first heartbreak and she helped me through mine. We had our first drinks together and she was there every time I got a new tattoo or piercing. We were inseparable and now, now she’s gone, and I’ll never know why she did it.

“How…?” I finally spoke after about 10 minutes of Jason rambling.

“What?” he asked.

“How did she do it?” I asked again.

            He face dropped once more but he wouldn’t answer me, I knew he was trying to save me from heartache, but I needed to know. If I was going to get any closure then I needed to know how she did it, even if I couldn’t even get a why, at least I knew I could get a how. Then finally he spoke.

“She ripped off her bandage and cut open her initial cut. She bled to death.”

            I took a deep breath, now reality is sinking in I really have lost my best friend, but I couldn’t cry, I knew tears were right behind my eyes. They were fighting their way out but I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t cry for her. We promised each other years ago that if something were to ever happen to either of us that neither of us would cry. I wanted to, oh boy did I want to just break down crying, but I can’t. I didn’t know exactly what to say but when I finally decided to speak it took both Jason and Mystery Guy by surprise.

“May I see her?”

“I really don’t think that’s a good idea…”