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3. Jerry -

Chapter Three

Jerry -

'Thanks for the meal mum,' I said to her as I kissed her briefly on the cheek and then dumped my plate in the sink.

'You are welcome Jerry,' she said whilst taking the jug of water away from Alex and filling his cup herself.

'Can I have some more water too?' Amy asked, raising her cup to mum, pushing a load of peas off her plate with her elbow as she did so.

'Yes, hold on...'

I smiled as I left our kitchen/dining room, ran up the stairs and into my bedroom.

Once in my room I went straight to my desk, turned on my computer and tapped impatiently as it booted up. As soon as it did I logged on and signed in to MSN.

Erin was the only person online who I wanted to talk to. I clicked on her name and began typing.

Jerry x says: Heya! Xx

For a couple of minutes there was no reply. I considered texting her when she finally replied.

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Hey Jerry!

Jerry x says: How are you? X

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Fine thanks

Jerry x says: Good! X

There was another pause.

Jerry x says: What are you up to? X

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: not very much. Mum asked me if I wanted to walk Apple later but I'm not sure if I will yet

Jerry x says: Cool! I might be walking Badger later too! Should I text you if I am?

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Oh, um

Another pause.

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: I've changed my number

Jerry x says: You have? When?

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Today

Jerry x says: Why?

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Changing network.

Jerry x says: oh.

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Yeah, sorry Jerry, I have to go now, see you tomorrow I guess! Bye!

Jerry x says: Bye! Xxxx

Erin loves you (L) <3 says: Xx

Seconds later her icon went grey. I logged out and placed my head in my hands, rubbing my eyes wearily.

I was a loser.

Mark was always saying I was too easy, too nice, too ready for anything she wanted, that if we ever went out in the end, she'd be the one wearing the trousers in the relationship because I'd be too busy kissing her feet to realise she was controlling me. Which was ridiculous. What was that supposed to mean? He barely even knew her. He didn't take to time to get to know her like I had. Besides, how was I meant to stop doing something, if I didn't realise I was doing it anyway?

Mark had offered me his help before. I hadn't thought I needed it then but, although I still don't agree with the controlling thing, I thought I may just need him. After all, he'd had more girlfriends than I've had dreams of Erin. I just wasn't sure of anything anymore. I was too scared to ask her straight out if she liked me or not. Too scared of her reply. Sometimes I wondered though, shouldn't I just tell her, because that way if she did like me, we could be together and everything could be amazing, and if she didn't, I could stop being such a creep and begin the long road to fixing my heart back in place or maybe even investing in a new one as mine may be so shattered it'd be impossible to mend.

Feeling only a little depressed, I decided to log onto Facebook instead.

When I logged on I had a friend request from Tom Cole which rang a slight bell. It was the guy from the drama thing; his display picture was a mug shot of

him turning around just in time for the picture looking a bit shocked and amused with a brown-haired girl behind him showing the peace sign. We had a couple of friends in common, one of them being Erin.

Puzzled, I accepted. I didn't think they knew each other before this, had he just added her now? And why was he adding me?

After that I checked my email and wall, nothing from Erin. She hadn't replied to anything yet, I wandered whether to send another one, just in case, but instead

I decided to go through my 97 notifications instead.

About forty-five minutes later I'd finished. The majority of them were just photos that had been uploaded. After constant commenting, de-tagging and 'like'-ing, I was tired and the more I thought about Tom beings friends with Erin, the more I wanted to know why.

Eventually, unable to help myself, I clicked on Tom's name quickly.

When his profile loaded, the first thing I saw was Tom Cole is now friends with Jerry West.

My eyes slid down the screen searching for Erin's name, and I found it. Tom Cole is now friends with Erin Harwood. They had become friends half an hour before I had added him... What did that mean? Did he like her? Why else would he add her?

I logged out quickly, feeling like a complete idiot. I was a sad case, reading into everything way too much. I was tired and probably needed a bit of a rest.

Sluggishly, I got up from my chair, dragged my way to my bed and collapsed. I needed help. I wondered if I would ever pluck up the courage to ask her out and

even if she was the person for me.

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