Gabe's alive

Memories.

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I could see Sam falling apart in from of me and I didn't even know what to do. I didn't know losing your bonded would be so bad. But Cas explained it was because a piece of soul and grace is swapped so that each carry a piece of the other with them always. That was until one died.

Sam's stopped eating. I'm force feeding him but he just hides away from me. I don't know how to help him.

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Sam is still refusing to eat. And I'm sorry to admit I'm letting him waste away in the motel while Cas and I hunted. I just don't know how to deal with this situation.
How am I supposed to help someone who's lost part of his soul. I check on him regularly to try and get him to eat but he's still refusing.
It hurts to look at him he's mostly skin and bone now. And the look in his broken empty eyes kills me every time.

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I found out Sam had been cutting all this time. I took all the sharp objects away before I drank myself into a sobbing mess. How could I let this happen to my baby brother! I was supposed to look after him.
I have taken to sitting by his bed to keep an eye on him. And I've realised he barely sleeps. In amongst all of this the show down with Lucifer is coming and I'm scared Sam is going to do something stupid.

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Sam sliced to deep today. I thought I'd hidden all the knives bits he'd found one. I patched him up and took the knife away. This is the second time I've had to do this and I don't know if I can continue with this. He's determined to go and I think I might have to let him.

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He said yes to Lucifer. How am I supposed to deal with that. I know he intended on jumping through the gate into the pit but Lucifer just walked off in his meat suit.
I went after him. I'd chase him to the end of the earth but I found him in Lawrence Kansas in the old cemetery. Adam was now Micheal and Sam/Lucifer were stood there facing off.
Next I know I'm a mess and Sam is back in control. "I'm so sorry Dean this is for the best I promise!"

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He's gone and I don't even know what to do. If it weren't for Cas I wouldn't still be holding on this well. Thank God for Cas.

"You're welcome for Castiel Dean. " Chuck said as he came back to the room. He sighed his heart heavy. He was starting to seriously regret not telling these two who he was and helping when they had first met.

He would make it up to them. He just had a few more stops to make.