I'm human (completed)

Seaside mayhem

The surrounding area we were in smelled nearly of salt mixed with the air moisture. We must be near water. My window was rolled down and the wind seemed to turn into a chilly breeze. I wasn't quite used to it considering my place was in Detroit and...not out here.

Buildings began to emerge, beautiful ones at that, ones that had decorated windows, blooming and bursting with such a range of colors. Pastel and soft to hard and vivid, it really was tasteful candy to the eyes. The roads were now becoming less bumpy and more smooth, more easy to drive on.

My eyes trailed to the distance, my eyes opened  wide and for the first time I felt so happy, I felt joy. Birds flying in flocks, small children running around playing tag and buying things from stalls on the side, girls with jumbo jewelry and hippy-ish clothes walked the streets. There were androids but they...weren't servants, they were free to do what they pleased. They didn't wear their default clothes, their masters bought them new ones.

A parade seems to be happening, maybe I've got this all wrong but seeing all these colors and people smiling with their androids, acting like a family. Confetti was floating all around in the air. I felt so much emotion that I began to cry.

Our car had pulled into a driveway and we all had gotten out, but before I did I quickly wiped my tears away from my face with my sleeve.

"Now look at that view." Deborah said flabbergasted.

"I know, ain't it a beauty." Lt replied.

I stood with my arms crossed behind my back and no expression, I had forgotten that this was their day. I shouldn't intervene. 

They began to move and so did I, following Lt we went into a cafe called 'meré divine'. Again I kept my emotions subtle. All over the cafe's walls were painted children's' patterns and sculptures on the counters of each table, resembling an idol of some sort. Androids could sit with their masters and not in a separate area, the windows were tinted with colors as the buildings I had seen when we were driving.

Lt instructed me to sit down and I suited follow. To be completely honest I was taken back by how beautiful this cafe was. Their counter speckled with pieces of diamond and their menus looked absolutely stunning, but despite all that...despite all that I still didn't want to be near them. An empty feeling had emerged in my body and I didn't like it. It's like I'm here but not at the same time.

"So Deborah, what will you be ordering?, it's on me."

"I was thinking about 'śulfe bùe don." Deborah responded, still looking at the menu.

I looked at them both, they were both whispering to eachother and laughing, I felt left out but I also felt like...like they were laughing at me. I felt so little, so conceded. I'm here but I'm not. I didn't notice but my led started flashing red. I was informed of it because Lt pointed it out.

"Connor, are you ok? Yah got uh something wrong with your uh." He pointed to the side of his head, "thingy mehgiger."

I blinked, finding anything to calm me down. My breathing was noticeably heavier.

Looking at Lt I stated coldly, "I've got to get some fresh air. I'll be back."

Quickly getting out of my seat I made my way to the exit, rushing out of the cafe I went back into the area we parked in and laid my back on our car door side. I looked to the right and I saw a red railing, it's paint peeling off in several places. I walked over there and looked down to see the ocean, leaning over I put my head in my hands to get into some sort of calm state.

I heard footsteps behind me but I didn't turn around.

"Connor?, You ok?" It seemed to be Lt.

I stood up straight and turned my head to him, my hands still on the railing.

"I-I'm fine, just...never mind." I whispered, turning back around to see the ocean.

"Ok, just don't do anything stupid, I'll meet you back inside, ok."

"Yeah."

I head his footsteps drift away. I don't understand. Why do I feel for him?, why do feel the way I do when I see Deborah?, I don't understand. Angrily kicking the railing, I set myself back on the right mind track and was about to make my way back inside the cafe but stopped when I saw Deborah walking towards me.

"Connor." Deborah greeted "its good to see...you're calmed down."

"Yes, I had a moment to think and I assure you, nothing is wrong with my programming. It was only a temporary inconvenience." I responded accordingly.

"Yes, but you see. I was wondering about something."

"And what would that be, Deborah?" I asked, tilting my head.

She put her hand near my led, carefully traced her finger to the left side of it and pressed gently.

"I heard that when you press the left side of an android's led, it turns pink, and you know what pink stands for, it stands for lust in my country."

Immediately my knees weakened and I was forced down by my inability to balance myself on the ground, my arms fell numb to my side and I looked up.

"Your body will become sensitive, you'll feel everything, hear everything, and y'know the best part of it all." She leaned to my ear, "every android knows what your led color represents."

My eyes widened and for the first time I felt humiliation and I felt scared. She began Bending down to pick me up, I had clutched onto her shirt, everything felt wrong, every small move, every noise, even the air felt like it was touching me. I didn't like this, I didn't like this at all. All of this felt uncomfortable, forced.

I tried hiding my led with my hand but Deborah put my arm around her shoulder and walked me to the entrance of the cafe. I didn't want to go in. I didn't want to be humiliated but what choice was there I didn't have the keys to the car.