While Kate clean my leg,I can't help but think that maybe coming back was a mistake. I might check flights to go back to London later before going to bed.
"All done" Kate said.
"Umm. Thanks."
"No problem sis, okay ima go start a bath for you okay"
"Yeah" I said
While she walked in the bathroom I went grabbed my phone to check the time it was only 5pm. Kate walked back in the room smiled at me
"Go take a bath Ana,and after meet us for dinner in the family room,okay."
"Okay"I said
——————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————————After taking a shower I got dressed the best way I could because of the pain flowing through my body like a lightning speed.
Grabbing my phone and typing for a oneway ticket to London while making my to the grey family room for dinner. There's a flight for tomorrow at 9:00 and one for 10:00 in the morning.
I Think very hard wether or not to buy it my finger hovering over the phone but I know if I buy it I'll break Kate's heart again and also thinking it's they only way I know to keep my family safe form Elena using them against me,and I can't let that happen again, not again.
"Ana" I look up and see Kate and all the Grey's looking at me in concern
" Is everything alright" Mia ask's
I let out a nervous laugh and say "yeah" and lie and force a fake smile to them.
"Ohh,okay than come and have a seat with us dinner is ready"
"Okay" Kate gives me a weird look while I make my way to the end of table to sit and eat.
While we are eating and the grey's make small talk I take out my phone and check the flights again debating wether or not to buy the ticket back to London I don't know wether or not too thinking about my family safety I can't help but feel helpless my visions becoming blurry with tears and low whimper comes out of me, I run my hand through my hair and rub my face with frustration thinking and thinking and a frustrating groan out of my mouth looking at my phone screen
"Ana" someone says but I don't pay mind to it
Still frustrated and look at my phone screen running my hands throw my hair and my leg bounce up and down from a nervous habit
"Ana" tears clouding my vision while I sit there having a war in my mind I grab something on the table and squeeze so hard out of anger and still look at my phone screen I hear a distance sound of glass breaking
"ANA"someone screams
"WHAT" I scream out of frustration and look up and they look scared
"Your hand,Ana" Elliot says
I glance down towards my hand and see a lot of blood and glass cuts on it. I close my eyes and take a deep breath and breath out I open my eyes and stand and start walking towards the kitchen sink
"Ana..Ana is everything okay"Kate says
"Yes"
"Ana I—"
"I SAID EVERYTHING IS FINE" I shout-out
Kate jumps back while I look at her emotionless
"Everything is fine,Kate" I whisper looking down to the marble floor I start to walk but Kate says
" And there it go's again Ana,always pushing people away when you get close to them,you don't have to protect us anymore Ana, I understand tha..."
I turn around fast " NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND KATE, ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO BE HERE FOR YEARS BUT CAN'T HELP BUT THINK THAT COMING BACK WAS A MISTAKE,ELENA KNEW WHERE I WAS FOR YEARS KATE......how long do you think it will take him to find me again Kate,how long Kate.all I ever wanted to do was to be here with my family again like it use tooo"
" you can Ana" said Elliot
" NO...NO" I rub my face in frustration crying
"No I can't Elliot he'll find me again and use you guys against me as leverage.. can't let that happen again,not again" I whisper the last part crying grabbing my hair in frustration screaming out of anger pacing back and forth
"Ana I need you to calm down"
"I CANT" screaming grabbing my hair with my hands closed tight pulling with my eyes shut trying to breath but everything hurts
"Ana breath"
"I CANT ......IT HURTS..... IT HURTS, falling on my knees screaming out a sob,IT HURTS"
" Ana I know it hurts just let all in" Elliot says kneeling in front of me taking my face in his hands looking at me
"NO.NO I I CANT ITS TO MUCH" I sob
" just focus on the feeling and grab on to it"
" URGGGG" I yell
"That's it Ana just like I told you"
"Ahhhhh" I sob
"Keep going" Elliot says
I whimper and put my head down on the marble floor with my hands on my hair crying and whimpering like a child
I feel someone hugging me from behind while I'm crying and I just keep crying until I have no tears left.
I take deep breath and let all out I look up and see Kate and Mia crying and Christian with a soft look and Elliot there next to me and Taylor with head bow down next to Mrs.jones who is crying.
I Feel someone rubbing my back in a calming manner and I turn my face to look and I do a double take and say
"Papa" in a broken voice.
