Suicide Poetry/Quotes/Depression/Anxiety

"Demons"

I got a call telling me to stop writing but written helps my demons calm down. I see how you look at me. You had a smile that showed me hatred for what have I done to you. You tell me not to share my stories that I write but when people tell me my books helps them it makes me happy. We have our own stuff that we are dealing in our lives but when people comment on my book and they understand it or relate to the chapters, it makes my demons know that people relate to them. I write to the point where my finger hurt and no matter what I post I have so many drafts that no one seen and I can't wait to show people them. So when people read my book I'll be there beside them even if I don't know them.
-RM

When I wrote my own chapters I make sure people just understand what I my be going though or what I'm feeling. Yeah some of the things I wrote about have my friends but I try to write something that has me in it. We aren't perfect but writing helps me even if I hurt myself from writing. This month I was 1 year cleaned but I relapsed and ended up cutting myself because I couldn't deal with the pain I was hold in any longer. I still have visions of me cutting the first time how it was my relief but it also made me realize that I maybe not perfect but someone will be there for me. Some people aren't going be there for me when I relapse again but I'll be trying not to relapse again