Just You (a Louis Tomlinson fan fiction)

Chapter 13, tears and more tears

Louis' P.O.V.

You don't know pain until someone you care about so much is taken out of your life. You don't know pain until you reach the ultimate limit you can reach. And you absolutely don't know pain until you realize that life will never be the same again. Today, all of this happened. As Payton was sitting next to me, crying hysterically, all I could think of was why. Why did this happen to us. I looked to my right and saw Danielle, practically on her knees balling.

Today Liam was completely taken out of our lives. He died early this morning. His lungs were too weak and unsustainable to work anymore. He and Danielle were due to get married three months from today. She will never be able to love again. And she is so young. Its just so sad to know that he will never be able to be here with us again. He will never be able to laugh with us again. Or at the very least sing with us again. Our band is going to fall apart.

But we will never ever lose contact. And so I guess this means none of the lads and families of the lads are going to move down here still. We have nothing to do now. Liam was the most dependable of us all. And now this happened. If anything else happens in my life that's drastic in the next few years, I swear I am going to have severe depression issues and I will have to go to counseling. But right now is not the kind of time to think about this.

As Liam was lifted off the hospital bed, he was ghostly white and lifeless. I started to cry and Payton intertwined her fingers with mine. I asked her to come sit on my lap and she did with ease. I wrapped my arms around her and sniffeled. She put her head on my chest and started balling. That was when I lost it. I took Payton and led her out of the room. We needed to take a walk. We didn't have anything to say to each other at that moment.

All we did was walk hand in hand and cry together. I picked her up and carried her like a baby as she sobbed into my shirt. I sobbed too but with her luck it got on her shirt too. Eventually we had nothing left in us so we had to stop crying. It was late. About 9:16 to be precise, and we have been crying for over 2 hours. Liam's body was taken away about an hour ago. I put my head in my spare hand and Payton scooted very close to me for comfort. I invited her in and held her close.

This is the first time I actually felt really connected with her. We have been through a lot already and it was really hard for both of us. If we hadn't met each other I honestly don't know where I'd be right now. But the weird thing is, I didn't have to do anything to draw her in. I just invited her and she accepted. So I guess it was mutual the entire time. I love her. Honestly. And some day, she will be my wife.

Bringing me out of my thoughts, she put my arms around her. I brought my head down to her neck and she moved her hair so I could put it even closer to her cheek. She started to sniffle and her breathing was all choked up. She started to shake and I realized that she was hyperventilating. I pushed her off the side of me and bent down so I was at her level. No way was I losing her today too. I put my hands on her shoulders and stared into her eyes.

She looked at me and I saw a tear rolling down her eye. She choked out the words "Help me." I started crying and did my best to be serious with her even though my heart was breaking. "Babe, I need you to think of the happiest moment you have ever had in your life. And then I want you to do something for me." I said. She nodded her head and looked like she was in pain. "I want you to be mine forever. I want to wake up with you in my arms every single morning but most importantly I don't want to lose you today. BREATHE!!" I shouted.

She started taking big breaths and letting them go. She did this for about fifteen minutes and the color started coming back to her face. "That's is. Just keep breathing sweetheart." I said soothingly, and started rubbing her arm. She nodded and continued to breathe steadily. She started coughing and I realized she was going to be alright. I saved her life. When she was done coughing she had all color on her face again and she gave me the biggest hug ever.

"You saved my life." She said. I nodded. "I love you so much." She told me. "I love you too babe." I replied. "And I will do anything for you. From now until forever." I told her. She smiled and a tear escaped her eye. "I... Louis?" She said hesitantly. "Yes?" I asked. "I will love you unconditionally forever. But I have to tell you something now." She said. "Okay babe, of course. Anything. "I wanna marry you." She told me. I froze right where I was. I couldn't move or talk.