My Brothers Best friend (REWRITTING)

11|Daddy issues?

Adrien

"Are you saying I have daddy issues Dr.Russel?" I raised a brow looking at his now tensed up face, I let out a low chuckle.

"I-I... just think your father abounded you at a young age, and it could be the reason you act the way you do." 

It wasn't my plan to see Dr.Russel ever since last session, but the more I stayed away the more I realized I liked talking to him. I liked the way he rolled up his sleeves to his forearms every session, and the way his face tensed when ever I said something that made him uncomfortable and granted it happened often. I liked the way he dressed, mature but well styled. I liked the hidden tattoo he has right above the waist of his jeans, and the fact he doesn't know I glare at it every time his shirt rides up. 

"Wow Dr.Russel." I emphasized, but truly I wasn't offended or hurt from what he said. 

"Forgive me, I didn't mean to be blunt." He brought his pen to his chin, "You've told me about your past relationships and I'm beginning to connect the dots." He said and I I raised my brow.

"You're Father left your family when you were twelve, correct?" I nodded. "You once told me you get attached easily to guys who leave you, and run when a man tries to commit to you. You said, you find yourself going out to bars and flirting with the men shamelessly." He took a deep breath, "And I think you find you need their approval and attention, and if your not seen in the eye of a man your not seen at all." 

I take in what he says and let it dawn on me when I think about it, I realize I've craved it ever since I was a kid. But I wrong to believe my father leaving my family is the cause to my issues or the way I am how I am. Why me? My brother grew up without a father and yet he turned out to be a wealthy doctor. Then you look at me, the little girl who turned out to be the disappointment of the family, just like her father.

As much as I liked Dr.Russel I will never understand how he makes me feel like a good girl one day, and a piece of shit the next. 

And yet, maybe that's why I like him.

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Call me vain or self obsessed, but you can't lie when you see me on stage all eyes are drawn to me. I loved it. I loved it all. The looks, the stares, the mouths watering, the tease of wanting something they couldn't have. It was like I was possessing the men that watched, by the end of the night they were drooling, and wishing they didn't have to go home to their house wives. It's Probably why Alessandro asked me to help the new girl. If I was a new girl I would want the best of the best, to teach me too. 

One thing I new in this this business is that if you dont' have have the fucking confidence you'll never make it, and little Jenny was about to get her heart crushed if she thought I wasn't going to lay the hard cold truth on her. "Never wear blue on stage, it clashes with the lights." She nodded, keeping up to my fast pace. 

My outfit was knee high black boots with black stockings on my knee,  lacy black booty shorts, and a beautiful gold bra chain. My lips were a deep dark red, it was my color. I slipped into my over sized fur coat, "These men don't want some cheap girl dancing on them, they're multi billionaires... they expect class, confidence, and power." 

Her steps followed behind me, "Power?" She asked hesitantly. 

I grabbed a glass of champagne that was laying on my dressing room for me on my way, "Sit down." I told her taking off my coat. I knew Jenny wouldn't understand, so I needed to show her instead. I reached out to the pole in front of me and held it loosely as she watched. "When those men walk in, they're walking into your home. And you need to show them who run's it." I moved my hips in slow circular motions, "Like a game of cat and mouse." I walked to the edge of the stage seductively where she sat. "Pull them in," I say trailing her body with my eyes from down to up. "Make eye contact." I lured my eyes into her blue ones, licking my bottom lip slowly. Her body looked tensed watching, I used it to my advantage. My eyes narrowed and I ran my hands up my body slowly without losing eye contact. 

"Pull them in close." I whisper,  lowering my body to floor crawling towards her. I flicked my tongue out in a slow movement, letting it touch my lip. I leaned closer to her lips, and let out a breath. I could feel her heart beating rapidly as our chest were pressed together. I reached my hand out and tangled it in her auburn hair giving her neck access to me. "And just when they think you have them..."I grazed my tongue to he ear, she let out a gasp and I tried not to laugh. "Let them go." 

"Wow, that- that was really good." She breathed heavily as I got off her lap. 

"Like really good." She mumbled, "I wish I could dance as beautiful as you." Supposedly its just a perk of having 'daddy issues', I thought to myself.

"Well this is The Reserve, and Alessandro doesn't hire off the streets,"I gave her a serious look, "So you must be good at something." I raised my glass to to her, walking out of the room. 

After changing into regular clothing, I took the elevator to the underground Parking. The car lot was filled with nothing but exotic cars, I loved it. The lot was empty and quite, my heels echoed through out the air as they hit the cement with every step I took. 

I felt this blackness come over me. My head began to pound, and somehow my eyes feel heavier and heavier making it hard to keep them open. Looking into the distance  I could see my bright red car a few feet away, but with each step I took it seemed to get further and further away from me. My limbs felt numb, like noodles. The car was no longer red it was a flashing light with multiple colors around it. 

The room around me was a vibration of colorful colors, I ran my hand through my hair not knowing what was going on. I pressed my hand to my forehead, why am I sweating? In the narrow of my eyes I saw a black Suv pull into the parking lot with full speed. My mouth was dry, so dry. 

I just need to close my eyes, just for a little. I could hear the Suv speed closer to me, they were getting closer. I blinked trying to keep my eyes open, but they were too heavy. Just... need.... to close... my eyes.