Haunted archer

Give and take - Kiss and hug

When he reached his house's gate, Touji dared to look over his shoulder, Yuzuru was still following him, not seeming to be upset at all. All of Touji's bravado was gone. Yuzuru had followed him, but he had not said anything at all.

Was he upset about what Touji had said?

Touji sure was thinking all the way home how Yuzuru's lips had felt. How good felt being against him. And he had meant what he said. It might have been a thought that came to him in a second's time, but still, he decided to trust it. Touji felt that it was a little selfish, this hope that falling in love with a ghost would be possible. It would also be easier to end things. This was the easier part, but there was a part that Touji didn't want to think about, and he decided to not do it until a lot later.

Touji opened the gate and then stepped to the side to let amazed looking Yuzuru in. Touji led the way to the house and was surprised that Yuzuru still didn't say anything. So he decided to ask some questions about stuff he was curious about.

"Yuzuru, can I ask you some stuff? I was wondering about some things."

"Yeah sure. You can ask me anything." Yuzuru's countenance was so open, that Touji just looked at him for a second with amazement. How could one person be so straightforward and seem to rely on his feelings a lot more than logical and reasonable behaviour?

"I was thinking, when you said, you saw me at different times. When you appeared it was always near me. Did you understand why?" It seemed the most important question to Touji, but he had no idea, what Yuzuru was thinking about that.

"Actually I have thought about it a lot. At first, I thought that maybe you are somehow connected to me, without me realizing it. But that doesn't seem to be it. But the more I concentrated on you, the more I wanted to be with you. I can move away from you, but it feels hard and I'd rather not do it anymore." Even though his heart leapt in sudden happiness, Touji didn't dare to think too much of it. He also couldn't fathom how, behind this beautiful face was someone, who was straightforward yet sweet in his manner. It didn't seem to be an easy mix, there needed to be a special flaw in Yuzuru. Maybe something tragic would blow his mind if he finds it.

"What do you mean, you want to be with me? If you have noticed what life I live, why should you want to know me? I'm the sad lookalike of a rich family's kid. You saw it yourself... if you have been with me all this time, then you know I haven't got the best of family relationships. And most of my 'dating' has been to pass the depressive time I need to be by myself. " Touji didn't dare to look at him, so he picked up his bag and just headed to the second floor towards his bedroom. And to his surprise and happiness, Yuzuru followed him.

"I've actually noticed a few things about you. One is that, whatever was the reason you dated all these girls, which I never will believe that you did it because of depression or boredom, you never wanted to just play with them. You never once hurt them from any malice on your part." Touji looked up at Yuzuru's face with some hope that somebody could maybe understand his side. Even if it was just from a ghost. He sat on the bed and called Yuzuru over to sit too.

"Can you tell me, what are your plans? I can't go to school every day and talk to you at the same time. Others would soon notice and start asking what's wrong with me."

"Yeah, I can imagine this. Tweets about a rich Houka academy student, who has mental problems and was talking to himself." Yuzuru was seeing jokes where Touji could only feel dread. But as Yuzuru was laughing out loud, it took a bit to control his own emotions. Touji found it surprising, wanting to laugh along with the other boy. He had actually never felt this kind of companionship, with anybody except his brother. But this only made him sad again.

"I will come to school with you, but I will stay away. I don't want to bother you or ruin your new relationships. I just need to see if there is anything that tells me what is my meaning as a ghost. I would like to come everywhere with you. If you allow it." Touji looked at him and felt himself blush.

"Actually I decided yesterday, that I won't search for a relationship anymore. I don't want to keep feeling disappointed, and I don't want to disappoint others. It's gotten to the place, where I wanted to give up feeling love against anyone at all."

Touji felt how Yuzuru was looking at him with such concentration, that he felt himself blushing and needed to look away even more. 

"Touji. Did you mean what you jokingly said before? Wanting to fall in love with me, even though I'm a ghost?" Touji felt Yuzuru's fingers touch his cheek, just lightly. Again he felt the warmth, the tingly feeling, it moved on to his bones and he felt that it was really difficult to stay upright in a sitting position.

Touji lifted his eyes to Yuzuru's. The other boy just leaned in not waiting to hear his reply, Toju automatically closed his eyes. The kiss was as light as a feather. Just a peck, so light, that Touji wasn't sure if he imagined it or did it really happen. His eyes fluttered open and he saw Yuzuru watching him with mixed emotions displayed on his face. It wasn't like Yuzuru at all. He seemed so concrete and certain of his every movement.

"Yuzuru, do you get to touch everyone?"

"No. Only you."

"Does anybody else see you?"

"No."

Touji tried to turn his head away, he felt he couldn't concentrate and there was one more thing he wanted to ask, but then Yuzuru said it himself.

"I think there is a reason it's you. I don't know what else it is for us to do together. But just for a second let's imagine that this is it. Maybe we were supposed to have fallen in love, but something went wrong. Whatever it is, I have felt something so intense for you, from the moment I saw you drawing that bow in the dojo. And if your decision is as you dared to speak before, then I'm willing. Are you?"

Touji felt the need to hide. Yuzuru's words sounded so true and real. Would this be what he was looking for? Shouldn't he be thinking this over? Shouldn't he... He lifted his eyes to him again. The hell with logic and thinking. Yuzuru was here and he was real enough for him right now. And he nodded.

With a smile as warm as the sun Yuzuru took a hold of the nape of his neck and drew Touji's mouth to his. The warm pressing feeling against his lips, made Touji open his mouth with sudden hunger. He grabbed Yuzuru's waist and held him closer to him as they tasted each other, with a feeling of never-ending hunger.

*song: Exo-Baby don't cry. Well, I think the words fit. I feel like Touji could need something along these lines from Yuzuru. 

*Hope this chapter isn't a real letdown for you as it is for me. I could have done better. Will try with the next one :) Still keeping the faith :)