Haunted archer

A new way to live

The following days were confusing. As those two were together almost everywhere, it seemed impossible to not, to respond to Shino, every time he made a jab at Touji. Or provoked him in any way. Mostly he did it in public places. At school, on the train. Somehow Touji got through with acting like he wasn't insane or in any way teased at.

Though the first time at school with Shino was a challenge. Every time he wanted to ask him something, he was just about to open his mouth, when the warning look from him quickly quieted him. Touji had no idea that the problems would arise so quickly. As short as their time together had been. But when he had found someone to be with, it seemed like nothing mattered anymore. When he was alone with Shino at the lunch break making sure they were not watched. He told him about his problem, the feeling of closeness, that actually made Shino feel good, more than he probably should have felt, but still. The smile he had on his face told it all.

"I don't think it's such a big problem. You will get used to it, but we could get some hand signals, because if you start winking at me, then we have about 50 girls behind your gate by evening, who all think that you winked at them. And you can't talk to me through others too, it will probably look weird. But you can cross your fingers, which will mean, that you don't agree with, whatever the situation at the moment or you don't agree with me when I've said something. Though I will try to make you be in a public place as bearable as possible, I actually don't want to make you feel bad." Shino pursed his lips a bit in deep thought. And then gave Touji some thought about easy, quick signs, they could use. Like crossing his fingers, making an okay sign, a V sign and thumbs up and down. Just some signs, that meant, no, yes, going in a direction the v was pointed at. Thumbs up and down were so weirdly explained by Shino, that Touji didn't even want to make the sign anymore, to anyone. Touji was pretty confused, at these signs too, why would a thumb up sign mean I love you and the thumb's down, I miss you? But Shino was adamant, that it was supposed to be so, and Touji was nothing but agreeing with him on almost everything. He thought that it could be a problem, in the end, but... who cared right now.

Days went by and being with Shino was easy and made him laugh, sometimes Touji felt that there was nothing he felt bad anymore. They talked about everything. As Shino had watched him by his side for months Touji suddenly felt that there was someone, who would see his point of view. Or when he wasn't right then without afraid of anything and with bluntness, that at first had left Touji silent. Shino would always tell him whatever he thought.

One day after Touji got home from school Shino was reading a book on his bed, and he was studying for his Japanese exam, Touji's mom had called. Touji took the call and was upset about the tone of the call. His mother had decided, that the whole family should get together and Touji should fly to Tokyo. After months of not talking and cutting almost all communication with him, they now suddenly had to get to see him.

Touji wasn't sure if he remembered correctly, but he was almost sure he had never said no to his mother. He was trying to get himself not to feel guilty when Shino bounced on him. "Are you stupid or something?" Touji had never seen Shino really mad. Why was he this serious about a problem, that wasn't even his?

"Don't you think, that there could be so many reasons, why they felt necessary to push you away, or maybe there is something serious about wanting to meet now? Can't you imagine how bad it feels, when you at one point can't meet your family again?" and he walked out of the bedroom. Touji watched after him and sat in deep thought for a while.

Of course, he knew Shino was right, and he knew he would have called his mother back soon, apologize and assured her he was surely coming on the weekend. But for now, he needed to deal with Shino's feelings.

If he was right, then the reaction was logical. Shino was probably missing his family. Why had he not wanted to visit them already? And if he had, why was he reacting like that? Of course. Touji hit himself against his head. How could he be so insensitive? Though Shino could probably go and see his family, he couldn't interact with them. Because it was so easy for the two, he had not thought of this, but nobody else saw him after he had died.

Touji walked into the library, this had become one of the favourite places for them. Shino was sitting on the wide windowsill and twirling his fingers. Before Touji could say even one word, he started talking.

"It's weird how I can remember you, that one shot I saw you do. I remember everything about you at that moment, but I can't remember what was the last thing I talked to my sister about. I can't remember, what my mom made me breakfast that morning or what we talked about. And I still can't believe that I'm not able to remember, what stupid thought made me step in front of that car."

He seemed so sad when he said it. Touji felt, that Shino probably didn't want too much attention right now. So he sat on the windowsill next to him and waited until Shino reached for his hand and they laced their fingers. Though they were not looking at each other, it was comforting and comfortable to sit like this. Sometimes silence was enough. Touji was happy to sit there comforting Shino just with his presence and Shino was feeling better because of Touji being there. Neither of them knew how much time they would have, but the feeling at this moment was satisfying and both of them hoped it was going to be as long as possible.

*Somebody reviewed my writing... And said that it's awesome, but I should not fool myself. There is no possibility of writing lightly and just funny stuff... I think he was right. So here I go again. The chapters are short, and the story is short, and I'm trying to give it all I can. But the next chapter came out serious.. and I guess you need to figure out if you like it or not, all by your selves... I have a whole plot drawn down now. I know where I have to go, what I have to write.. and it will probably go really quickly now... So hope you all like it and don't judge me too much :) 

song: Let it Rain - Nichkhun(2PM). I know the back story to this song, it's sad and goes well with Touji's feelings... I guess if you listen to the words, you will get it. It's a beautiful song.
2PM  was my first favourite boy group in K-Pop, all thanks to this guy, Nichkhun.