Lovely

Chapter 5

I haven't felt this happy since my Dad was alive. I feel as though I'm just dreaming and it feels so real. How can all of this be happening and how is everything going so well? Usually everything in my life seems to go wrong.
I can't help but keep thinking about the way Tyler's lips felt on mine. Soft and warm. The touch of his hands. I don't know if I'm as lovely as he says I am.
"Ugh." I hear a knock on my door. "Come in."
Tyler walks in and I sit up.
"I wanted to talk about this between us."
I feel butterflies stir, he's going to ask me out. I really do want to be his girlfriend, but what am I gonna do about the distance.
"Ya, Same." I look down.
"I don't know if you want us to be together."
I look up and smile "I do Tyler, I want to be with you." He comes over and sits on my bed with me. "What about distance?" I ask.
"We're moving back to Greenbrier."
"Really!!! I jump up and jump on my bed "That's amazing Tyler!" He smiles at me and as I jump down he pulls me closer to him and he kisses my head. "Ik, I'm happy about it too."
Then we look at each other and I can feel the tension.
His lips hungrily clasp onto mine. He pushes my back onto the bed as he continues kissing me. I break the kiss. "Close the door." Tyler gets up and hurriedly shuts and locks the door.
"I hope my mom doesn't hear." I giggle.
He then crawls back on top of me. His lips start to travel down my neck. I whimper. He starts to place his hand on my breast. I start feeling overwhelmed and have flashbacks to my childhood past events and suddenly feel like I'm panicking.
"Tyler." He stops kissing me and looks at me.
"Ya."
"Can we stop?"
"Ya, sure." He's sits to the side and runs his hand through his hair and gives a concerned look.
"Are you ok?"
"Ya, I can feel my anxiety and everything kicking in and I'm just, I'm sorry." I feel as if I'm going to burst into tears because I feel like I ruin everything.
"Hey, it's ok, it's fine." He pulls me into his arms and cradles me. He kisses my head and rests his on mine.
He then gets up and walks out of my room "I'm gonna get you something to drink."
He walks back in and I look up still feeling flustered, "I got you sweet tea."
"Thanks" I gulp it down.
"Do you need anything?"
I shake my head, "I just need a nap, can you lay with me? Please."
"Ya anything for you baby, it's ok if I call you baby right?"
"Ya." I giggle.
I lay my head down on my pillows and Ty lays next to me and spoons me. He kisses my neck and holds my hand as he falls asleep with me in his arms.
.........
I wake up and I realize Ty is in my bed with me, he's moved from his place we fell asleep in and I roll over and see him, his face so peaceful and his mouth slightly open, I kinda smile.
Tyler opens his eyes. "Hey.."
"Hey." We just kinda lay there and stare into each other's eyes.
"I'm sorry about yesterday, I think we took it too fast and far."
He's apologizing for me and I feel bad, I wish I was normal and any girl would be ok with Tyler doing anything with them. I'm just a girl with a lot of bad history. I sigh.
"It's okay." I look at him and he goes "If you want to take it slow, I'm okay with that and it's worth waiting for—you're worth waiting for."
I can't help but blush at that thought and he brushes my hair behind my ear. I can't help but actually feel worth something and it scares me at this thought.