ATTACK ON TITAN SHIPS (ONE SHOTS)

Her Part(Infidelity Part II)

  
 
"I know"
 
 
Just these two words slapped Hanji in the face like how a titan would face to face. She could feel the tone of defeat on his tone, and that's what Levi never is. A quitter. But she hoped by this he would stop, he would stop destroying himself

 
And herself
 
  
She can't.

 
She can't.
  
  
She just can't
 
 
She can't commit her self to a man. She can't commit herself to Levi. No, she can't commit to someone, anyone...
 
 
But damn it, she cursed her heart, the pain on her ass was forgotten because her heart hurt more. She admit it, no matter how much she denies it, she knew without doubt...that she fell in love with Levi. That her heart belongs to him and to him only. That she can't come when it's with other guys, that she can't try to feel pleasures but instead feels down righted disgusted to herself. That every trysts with other men felt like cheating, the disgusting one where she just forced herself.
 
 
And she had to, because she can't love Levi. No she can't.
 
 
She had promised herself that no, she was never gonna be with anyone, and if she was ever gonna be with someone it's only gonna be mutual fucking, with no strings attached.
 
 
She wasn't really a slut, she wasn't that sex starved, she just have one when the feel comes. And it usually just comes in twice a year or thrice, five men max. And she preferred to do it herself, with her ever trusting strap on leatherized log.

 
 
But then ever since Levi joined the corps, with his fast agility and strong muscles. Hanji can't help but wondered if how sex will be with humanities strongest. But Hanji dismissed the idea. She has more paperwork to be done, she could always ask Erwin if she needed that human touch, but Erwin is already married, so maybe she'll ask Moblit? But then when did she ever cared fucking a married Erwin?
  
 
Anyway, she didn't actually have to think much about Levi and his muscled tones, hard abs, tight gripped hands, sturdy body, soft black hair, piercing blue eyes, and the way he takes down males as thrice as bigger than he is. No, she didn't have to...but of course who can blame her if she used him as a helpful image while she rides on her strap on during the middle of the night?
 
 
As the years passed by and she finally got to learn more about him, she knew what a tea addict he was, how short he is actually, and don't get her started on his clean freak side. But what she knew, not that she didn't knew it by then, it was just, now, she is thoroughly convinced how strong he is.
  
 
The night he fucked the living daylights out of her.
 
 
It was surreal, superb, unrealistic, truly magnificent. Even if she wasn't about to walk a whole day and limped for the rest of the week, it was worth it. She felt like she could live with no sex just by how content she is and how satisfied she felt. That was how great he was, sure her body had a lot of bruises, bite marks, hickeys, and her headboard may have broke, as well as her arms, but it was her fault for seducing a sex starved for 15 years, drunk, and now horny Ackerman who is the Humanities Strongest if she may add.
 
 
So yeah, life was good

   
it was even gooder when he came back for more a month later, then the next week, then three days, until It became a usual thing for them. Having sex almost every two other days, or everyday. They even have a quickie every now and then. Sex with other males were scarce when it came to Levi, maybe except Moblit and Erwin, they were pretty great but not just as great as the midget, well not really a midget if you consider his under...thingy.
   

But...

It just went down when Levi seemed to look at her more, fuss over her more, and touch her more. When they first had sex Hanji was the one doing the exploring, she thought it was just gonna be a one time thing, so she touched him till she can memorized every hard bumps she can. But then as time passed probably years later, Levi seemed to slow down their trysts, like he was exploring her but unlike how she does it, he was...gentle. And Levi was never the gentle type he liked it rough and hard and fast, just like how she does.
 
 
But he kept kissing her here and there, gone were the biting, there are still marks he left on her but it seemed like he enjoyed kissing her more than biting her. And hanji starts to panic, because what if...what if he started to form some feelings he shouldn't have. So she told him, more like exclaimed, that what they have is just pure fucking no loving just fucking.
 
 
He said he understood
 
 
But then he kept looking her with eyes she can't help but feel terrified with. He talked more when it was with her, and as much as she wants to talk, she can't enjoy it with him when he's talking about the future,