A Dream we are searching for

Volunteer life

If I go inside this building where I work every feeling comes back. Then there are two people which always cleaning the rooms up.

I say ,,Hello how are you today?"
They says ,,Good morning we feeling very good today"
,,Very good" I said.
Later I go upstairs to my room where my workmates are which always have something to do or give me some tasks to do in the house or for our clients.

Today I don't have so much to do because it's Monday after weekend and the clients mostly don't need so much help. Maybe one client will call me later to get help. But the most of the time I'm sitting in the office and do some paperwork.

As a social worker you have so much to hear about the problems of the people which are really hard. My clients are not that bad but in their future they get to knew so much bad that it hurts to hear if you know how nice the person is.

In my break I always go to the courtyard where are so many beautiful flowers and I feel very relaxed there. It's so safe there. And there I can think how much I want about things what I want to do in the future.

If I look on the roses my heart get faster. I love roses their are so beautiful and they give you so much energy to survive the days here. Furthermore if I start thinking I think about the dream I had.

The boy I saw in my dream which has a Name I don't really know. It's really creepy that I will maybe get to know someone which will take my heart into heaven. I know that I fall in love with a person three times but I had nothing with them. I only was in love with them and told nothing so they never know.

Do I know him or will I get to know him? So many questions and I don't know if it will happen or not. There was no dream so real like this dream. I have to talk to my friends about it later. But I'm not really sure if they will say that it is only a dream nothing more.

Maybe I have to find him? Wherever he is I want to know him. If I fall into thoughts about this dream I try to think about his name. That's really strange that I don't know him but he feels like a part of my future.

Like every girl I have this thoughts who could be my boyfriend and how will my own family look. I'm a person which also talks very much with her mum. My mum and I are really happy to have each other. And my mum told me if the time will come everything will be how you wants it to be but if you wait on it, it will takes longer to happen.

Two workmates which really likes me comes into the courtyard to smoke cigarettes. They talks about the clients and laugh. When they see that I'm sitting next to them they asks
,,Hey Melodie how do you feel today?Next week is your last Seminar right?"
I starting smiling ,, Very good and how do you feel today? Yes next week is my last Seminar and I'm very excited how it will be this time."
Now they say ,,It will be very good. We are good today but a little bit stressed because we have so much to do today."

I only nod and go inside and do the rest of my work. A friend of mine wrote me a message. She asks me how I will drive to the seminar. I'm waiting on a car and I really wanted to drive us girls to the seminar but I explain her the problem and tell her that I will take the train.

After some work I already can drive home. I close the doors and look if the windows are closed. So I get on my bike and drive home. If I come to my house I take something to eat which my mum cooked.

My mum comes into the kitchen and asks me how my day was and she gives me some letters which is from me. I can't tell her something about my dream because I'm a little bit ashamed of it. With 21 you can't have some dreams like this.

It makes me nervous in a way. Who is he? How is his Name? What do he like? Did I run into him? Do I know him but never realized how nice he is? I have so many questions and I think about it so long that I fall asleep.

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Hello my first lovely readers,

I'm so happy that two people voted already for my book. I'm thankful for that. Furthermore the next will come next Sunday. It will be excited. If you are so nervous like me to get to know more of it hold on. On next week it will be more. Every criticism which you will tell me do it! I would be very thankful for that because the criticism will help me to get better in writing.
See you on Sunday!

Love your Nessa