A Dream we are searching for

~Real Talk~

I'm waking up and my day begins to buy my stuff for the seminar. I made a list it makes everything better in a way. I'm so happy that my parents give me the car it makes everything simple for me. My sister comes with me because she wants to buy make up.

She loves make up especially the colorful make up. It's like every girl likes unicorns it's really cute. I'm always the fortunate to be heavily made up by her. She is always doing a very good job.

If we came to the city I paid my stuff and go to the store where I find my sister by make up stuff. Sometimes it is funny but now it's really discussing what she is looking for. And it's not that cheap it's really expensive. I don't understand.

Then she paid so many stuff and shows me at home. I looked very nice after she made me up. It's better than a professional make up artist.

She told me: ,, It's time to find a boy. A better one what you had. You are more than beautiful."

I looked at the mirror : ,, Wow Hailey you could be a make up artist. But boys you know. I'm not really ready for a new one. I had dates and it doesn't feel right. I don't want to be hurt as before you know."

So she stand up and looked at me: ,, I know but you deserved better. And it is okay that you want to wait if a real good one will come. But the boys want you and you must be more self - confident. Look at you you are perfect."

I took her into my arms : ,, Thank you! You are a really good sister. But there is something I'm looking for and I can't explain. It was a dream but it felt so real. You know I had a new boyfriend and he was really looking for me and makes me happy in my dreams. It's like you have a perfect soul mate."

Hailey goes and sit down on her bed: ,,That's weird in a way. You are dreaming about a perfect relationship and you are looking for this guy? Do you know his name or how he looks? Melody you know your first boyfriend was also a good one but in this relationship every friend saw it like their business. It's not good. And no one was really fault especially you. You did everything right don't forget that."

My heart starts hurting:,, I know and I will never have it again. I'm really waiting for a better relationship. But I don't know it's really difficult for me now with trust and yeah everything in a way."

Hailey smiles: ,, I'm always there for you so don't worry. We will be happy and you too. I feel it and now it too. Ok I have to do some school stuff. Pack your stuff and later we will watch movies okay?"

I laughs: ,,Yes okay."
So I started to pack my stuff. And I did a new list of everything what I take to seminar. My friends are calling and she told me that she buys everything for the week. And the week can start. We looked on maps where we will be for the one week.

I finished everything and only my cosmetic has to be packed but I will do it on Monday morning. After calling I started to do some fitness and to go jogging at my place. After long jogging I sit on a bench and think about this boy again.

Maybe I have to date more people or date them a second time. Nothing was there what makes me really feel happy. There was one which always talks about his self it was so awful. It's like I will never have the chance to talk about me.

And he was so devoted I can't really. It doesn't feel right. If you meet a girl you have to ask her how she is and what she likes. The future plans where also not that good. I don't know sometimes I think the people don't know what they really want.

I go home after my thoughts it's so depressing if you know that there is no one which really has the intention to be in a real relationship. The humans today are really complicated. Sometimes I think I'm from the 70's and where born in a wrong time.

I take a shower and go to bed my sister and me watched movies and go to sleep. We watched 'The fault in our stars' all-time favorite!

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Hello everyone,

I know I said I will publish my chapters on Sunday but I'm so busy in the next time it's horrible. But I will publish two today. Because I do not published a new chapter last week and yeah. So don't worry the book will be published as every day and maybe I will publish the next on Saturday. We will see. I hope you like the book and if yes please recommend and vote for it. It makes me so happy and it is so nice because it keeps me on working on it. I hope you have a beautiful day and enjoy the summer!

Your Nessi ❤️