A Dream we are searching for

~Plans for the next week~

And if I go to my garden I go lying on the grass. The stars are beautiful and very shiny. It is the scarness to my future. I don't want to have a complicated life. No one wants something like this I know but I'm scared to be alone one day.

Some hours later I go to my bed. And it is really heavy I fall asleep moments later. My alarm clock is ringing and I has no dream. It is the last day in this month when I go to work. Next week I have my Seminar and I'm really happy because it is mostly the nicest time as volunteer.

I took my clothes and start to finish my look for today. In my weekend I have to shop some things and my friends said we have to think about our plans what we want to do on our free time in the seminar.

Furthermore I arrived at my work. My employees are in the courtyard and drink a coffee and have a small talk. I took my bike there and listen to their conversation.

My friend text me
,,Hey Melodie, we have to think about our plan. Maybe I will take my Shisha to the seminar. I will call you later and we talk about some more things."

I texted her back ,, okay we will do it" my friends I get to know at my first Seminar are really cute and friendly. We have always fun together. I will miss them if everything will be over. But I hope we will meet us so much we can.

Later I go to my office and do my stuff as every week. I love this job but I know my dream was always to do something in Pharmazie. I'm really interested to do in a chemistry lab.

I hope that I will work in a scientific research it would be a dream for me. But it is also really difficult to get there. My  applications are out and I only wait on a answer.

After my work I'm driving home and eat something. My friend called me and we talked about our work today. Moreover we start to talk about the Seminar and make a list which things we have to buy for the next week.

Later we talked about girly things like every girl in this world. She has a boyfriend and they will meet as every weekend she says. I'm so happy for her they are three years together and they are really happy. And she says that they talk about everything they want.

Sometimes I wish I could had a boyfriend and a relationship like this too. But I always hear the bad things about relationships too and that makes me sad sometimes. You could have luck with your vote and sometimes you deceive in a person.

So much thoughts and everything is really complicated. My friend wishes me a good one but I am scared to get a wrong one. I was in one relationship and it was really nice but if I got betrayed I got a really bad jealousy.

Trust is a thing I can't explain it's lost but you have to find yourself to get through everything. I lost also so many friends which do not accept me for who I am. That's life and now I have a new part to live.

Hours ago we ended our conversation and go to bed. We write a little and I fall asleep after a long week. And my sister comes to my bed and wanted to sleep at my place.

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Hello my lovely readers,

I said that I will publish my next chapter on Sunday. Because of so many privacy things I had to do I could published the chapter only today. Sorry for that. I'm happy that there are coming new readers which reading my book. Melody will get to know new people on the seminar what will happen?
If you want to know you have to keep on reading the book. The next chapter will be on Sunday evening. And thank you for the votes that helps to keep on and it makes already fun to write the book.

Have a nice week! See you on Sunday!

Love Nessa :-)