The Light Within Sorrow

Chapter 4

Tavian's P.O.V
"Well then. First of all, who the fuck are you? And what is your problem with me?" She growled at Jessica. For once, she was scared. "I'm Jessica. I am just jealous of you, because I used to be with him, and I just want to be happy too." she said in a small voice. "Thank you. My name is Emma. The fact that you told me the truth, even though you don't know me, means that I can trust you." she said nicely. She turned to me and glared at me. "Ok. What is your name, and why the fuck did you sleep with Jessica? She is not your mate, so how can you do that and not feel guilty?" she asked me, anger clear as day in her eyes. "My name is Tavian, and I slept with Jessica because I was young and irrational. I also want to say that I do. I do feel guilty about it. I regret it with a passion. I know that a simple sorry won't fix what I did, but I hope that it can be a start to a life long apology." I say looking at her, while trying so hard not to just hug her, and take her away. I didn't realize I had looked away until Emma took my chin and made me look at her. "Thank you for telling me the truth. I can honestly say that I was expecting you to lie." she says softly. "Why? Did someone lie to you before? I would never lie to you. I vowed that I wouldn't lie to you when they first brought you here." I say quietly in her ear. She shivered. I could tell that being so close to me was making her giddy and that she just wanted to fall into my arms and stay there. I wanted the exact same thing. "Well, Tavian. I will tell you, but not right now." she said pushing me away. She smiled at me, and I couldn't help but smile back. "Earth to alpha. You still with us?" Jacob said. I jumped and shook my head. "Yeah. I was just" I trailed off. "lost in her eyes? Don't worry. it happens to us all." he chuckled. I just rolled my eyes and looked away from Emma. I really needed to focus, and I couldn't do it if I was looking at her. She seemed to sense this as she looked away from me and started to ask everybody thier names. I smiled at her before I left to go to my office. I had some paper work to do, and my dad was going to officially hand me the position of Alpha. I was content now. Nothing could ruin my mood. "Um. Alpha? There is a problem. You need to come immediately." Jacob said through the mind link. I groaned. I guess that my mood can be ruined. It just was. I got up and went to the kitchen. I found Emma sitting on Jessica with a knife to her throat. "Tell him what you told me, you dirty little skank." she growled. "I don't need to listen to you. I'm the one that is going to become luna. Not you. You're just a piece of gutter trash that he found on the side of the road and took pity on. You..." she never got to finish what she was saying. Emma just cut her throat. "I said, we could be friends if you just shut up and cleaned up your act. You decided to make a joke out of it. So you paid. I hope you enjoyed it, because that was the last thing you will ever do." She growled into Jessica's ear. I watched as the life drained from her slowly, and fear set in. She gave me a pleading look. "No. I won't help you. She gave you a chance and you blew it. You got more from her then I would give you. Sorry, but, I'm not sorry. You deserve it." I said coldly. Her eyes glazed over with tears before she went limp. I felt her presence disappear from the pack. It seems weird, but I was glad that she was dead. "Emma. I'm sorry about that. This wouldn't have happened if I had waited for you." I said looking at her. She had went to the sink and was washing the knife. "It's ok. I don't blame you. She had her chance." she said quietly. I walked over and took the knife from her. I set it down and Emma just collapsed into my chest. I picked her up and carried her out of the room. "Clean that up please guys." I said as I left. I heard a couple of them gasp. "Yes sir. right away sir." they said. I knew from their tone that they were willing to do this. For once, I had said please, instead of ordering them to do it. They were grateful, and I decided to use please from now on, instead of commanding them. I took her to my room and set her on the bed. I turned to leave, and she grabbed my wrist. "Can you stay with me?" she asked. I looked at her and I melted. "Of course. I will stay with you as long as you need." I said sitting on the bed beside her. She nodded and climbed into my lap. I relaxed and so did she. I sat back and just stroked her hair, while she just curled up and layed on my chest. I could feel her sobs, and it pained me. I sat up and hugged her.

Emma's P.O.V
He sat up and hugged me. I was devastated. How could I let Lilly take over like that. She just killed Jessica. No regret, and walked away like nothing happened. I burst into tears in his arms. ""Shhh. It's ok. I know that you weren't in control. You're ok." he whispered in my ear. I just closed my eyes and layed there. 'I had to do something. We both know that it was going to happen sooner or later. It was going to be us, or him. So I chose us. We needed a release anyways.' Lilly comforted me. 'I guess. You're right. But I still don't agree with killing Jessica like that. She never even found her mate.' I said to her. I wasn't mad, but I wasn't happy either. "Tavian. I'm sorry. I can't do this. I am not meant for this. It is time you choose someone else as your Luna. I, Emma Samantha Terrell, reject you, Tavian, as my mate. Do you except?" I said keeping all emotion from my voice. Lilly was screaming in my head. I looked at Tavian and his face was contorted in a look of pain. He opened his mouth and stopped. He looked at me before he spoke. "I, Tavian Dominic Swaller, accept you, Emma Samantha Terrell, as my Luna, and mate. I reject your rejection, and ask that you please never, reject me. Do you accept?" he replied smiling at me. I looked at him stunned. Even though I had just killed one of his pack members, and attempted to reject him, he just rejected my rejection, and asked if I would still be his mate and Luna. I was amazed. I looked at him, and he gave me a weak smile. My wolf howling for me to accept. I was going to attempt to reject him again, but the look he gave me, was full of love and hope. No hatred, or pity. Just love and hope. I crumbled and closed my eyes. If I was going to do this, I couldn't look him in the eyes. "I, Emma Samantha Terrell,.." he shook me and hugged me close. He seemed to think he knew what I was going to do. "Don't do it. Please." he cried. "So you don't want me, Emma Samantha Terrell, to accept you, Tavian Dominic Swaller, as my mate and Alpha?" I chuckled. "I don't... wait what?" he studdered. "I accept you Tavian." I said smiling. "You do? Thank you! I love you!" he yelled as I nodded my head. "We should tell everyone." he said. I stopped him as he got up. "No. Not yet. Not until I have gotten to know you. I don't want to face the pack after what I just did." I said looking away. He came back to the bed and sat down. "Emma. They don't hate you. In fact, they love you. Jessica had found her mate, and rejected him, so that she could try be with me. A week later, her mate killed himself. She didn't care, and just kept doing what she was doing. So by killing her, you gave everybody some piece of mind." he said softly. I felt better now. If she was that heartless to reject her mate, she deserved to die. Then again, I just tried the same thing. I smiled at Tavian, and nodded. "Thank you. I feel better now. Lets go meet the pack." I said jumping into his arms. He chuckled and stood up. "Fine. I will carry you. Only because you are my princess, and I love you. Plus you seem comfortable there." he smirked. I nodded at him and buried my face in his chest. He kissed the top of my head and I smiled. His scent was so calming. I felt him kiss my neck and I hit his chest. "Not right now. I don't want you in my head yet. I want to keep my thoughts to myself for the rest of the day." I said grinning at him. "So, tonight? I get to do it that soon?" he asked me. He was being serious. "Yes. I need to let somebody in. It is getting lonely in my head." I said losing my smile. He stopped and looked at me. I looked up at him. I closed my eyes and leaned up towards him. I felt him leaning towards me when the moment was ruined.