I have a paradox mind.
Paradox mind is a situation that made up of two opposite things
That seems like impossible but is actually true or possible
Like I'm fine but I'm not
I'm doing good but I'm dying inside
I'm smiling but wanted to cry badly on the inside
Sometimes I wonder
Why do I have this mind?
Why do I have this none stop and nonsense mind?
I'm depressed but I'm not
I can't stop thinking bout' everything
Still up at 3 am with bad thoughts inside my head
I can't tell anyone
I'm afraid. Afraid of the possibilities
That they'll leave me if they know
I'm afraid to be judge by anyone
Who's never been at my shoe
Loving him is not the cause of this
I'm just holding it in for a long time
Yes I've been surrounded by the people
Who I love and treasure the most
But I always feel alone
I want to live happily
But I'm afraid of living
I'm always a trash
Every time I'm thinking of my childhood times
I use to smile.
I miss the feeling of being happy
Without thinking what's gonna happen next
I miss crying on simple things
That I can't do now because of the matured mind I've got
Wishing that those experience would happen again
Even just for a day :')
~end~
06/27/18
6:08 am
