Attaching Hurts

I love him/ let it go

 Uncle Sam picture's with Sabrina

      Sabrina's P.O.V:

 I can't believe that he has done such a thing!!

 I'm on my own in the middle of nowhere, I'm really scared, what is gonna happen?!! So many senarious in my head and they're so much worst then the ones I imagined last time, what if I get kidnapped, or if I don't find my way back home and the night's wolves eat me.

   Mom, wherever you are, I know you're watching this, I know that I have to stay strong, that I have to find a way to get me out of this mess but please help me, I don't even know which way to go, please just give me anykind of sign.

  It's been quart an hour that I didn't move from where that jerk let me, no metter how I felt before, now I truly deeply hate him, that jerk, that peace of sh*t, I want to freaking kill him, to torture him till he die begging me to let him go. Here again so many diabolical senarious trot in my head.

  I can be sadic sometimes!

  I mean... what kind of love is this, he's pretending that he truly crazy deeply madly love Me, that the fact that he didn't find me drove him crazy, that he'll do anything to make me his girl, that we'll stay together forever.. and he can't even take me back home after a little argue!!!

  It wasn't even  an  argue, I just answered his question, what did he expect, I know I was rude but it's the truth, I wanted to protect me, what if I said yes, he'll break my heart before I tell him that I really love him,

  Wait, WHAT!!!?

  I know, I know... I just said that I hate him with all my heart and now I'm saying that I love him. When I told him what I was thinking of him, I saw that he was blessed, I blessed him, he said to all the lycee that he loves the girl  with the nacklace and I blessed him without thinking, even for a second, what he may feel, all I thought about at that moment was to protect me, I've been  a perfect selfish person.

  I'm going crazy with all of this and I feel gilty, I used to doubt but now I'm sure that refusing to date him was the better thing to do, I mean.. we didn't even started dating and we're already mad at each other, he's blessed and I'm on my own in a place I don't know which is full of danger, what's gonna happen if we argue,  are we gonna fight till someone's death!!?

   Don't you think that you're maybe exaggerating?!!

  No, I don't..... Ok maybe a little.

  When I think of it, I find that I don't know a lot of things about Alex, I don't know he's family,

  Hold on, it's not like you're getting married!!

Hilarous, you killed me (sarcasm)

  I don't know the way he thinks, whathe likes what he dosn't... ext.

  But you didn't need to know any of these things to fall in love with him,

  -"Yeah, I know" I sigh, I felt for him because I saw somrthigs in him i loved to see, he's playing taugh but he's nice, attentive, he cares about others, he's protective... actually, he's not that jerk he pretends he is,

  Oh what a beautiful gabble, are you sure you're to talking about the Alex we know, the one that we see daily, the one who left us on our own here!!

 Ugh, c'mon, nobody's perfect, he's just mad and it's our fault so don't blame him my dear mind, I love him, I know it, I knew it since the other day when I saw him with that little girl,

  *Flashback:

  I was walking in the park in a beautiful evening, breathing the fresh air, wandering my eyes here and there when I saw her: a little girl who's skatboaring.. trying to skatebord will be more appropriate: she was always falling, as soon as she was on her skate she was already falling, i won't lie that made giggle ( I know I shouldn't have..)but also I was pround of that little girl, she is the ombodiment of perseverence, no metter how hard she fall, she gets up a second after and re-trys again, that was a beautiful life lesson. So, I stayed there watching not giving up and giggling when I see how she falls when some guys were walking by there, they saw the little girl falling again and again and clearly made fun of her, that made me really mad, I was about to talk to them when one of'em went closer to the little girl, at the beginning I didn't recognize him and I thought that he would make fun of her or something like that, I was about to intervene but I didn't do anything when I saw that guy helping the little girl to get up, then he taught her how to skatebord, he was acting like a big brother to her, he caught up the child whe she was about to fall, he encouraged her..ect.

   You may imagine how I was surprized when I saw that that carring guy was no one but Alex!!

  End of the Flashback~

 ** 

 It's been  an hour since I was walking when a car pulled over and the man who was inside called my name, in a normal case, I'd be scared but I recognized the voice, it was my oncle Sam, my dearest dad's friend,

  -" Hello oncle Sam" I said,

 -" Hey sweaty, what are doing here alone so far from your house?" he asked, I raised my shoulders as an answer,

 -" Come on, jump in, you'll tell me what happened on the road, I'm going to town by the way" he said with he's usual huge smile,

 -" Thanks oncle Sam, you're the best!" I said jumping in the car.

  Oncle Sam is almost fifty but he acts kile a teenager, he loves to play and he's my confident, all the stuffs I never told to my dad I told them to him.

 I was so lucky to find him here!!

 I could tell him what happend today, he would have huge me and reassure me and all my pain and anger will fade away, but I didn't say a word, i don't want my actual feeling to fade away like that, I want to talk to him, argue with him, tell him the way I think.. otherwise I'll forgive him to soon and to easily!!

 **

 I'm home now, oncle Sam let me go when I promosed him to tell him the whole story later, he's so so cool, I adore that man!

  I'm on my own, Dad is in LA like usual, he won't come back till next week, he's going more often than he used to, I wonder why, maybe because there's more work.. or something like that?! I trust my Dad but I know that he's hidding something from me.

 I decide to take a shower and relax, it's worthy after the day I spent.

 I was on the shower, thinking about what I'm gonna do in the week-end, singing the songs of the radio, when "human by christina perri" passed, at that moment I stopped singing and went out of the bathroom hearing the song, I couldn't help it but cried like an idiot, the song was over and " more than you know" was the next one, usually I love this song and I always dance while listening to it, but tonight I wasn't in the mood I just heard the beginnig and turned off the radio and continue craying like a stupid broken girl, I wanted to stop my tears from falling but couldn't,

  Sabrina, if you cry today, don't cry tomorrow for the same thing, let it go tonight, it's ok, you can't always be strong.

 And that's what I did, I cried so hard listening to "cry by Rihanna", it was exactly resuming my situation ( the one with Alex), then I heard "Spring day by BTS" thinking of my mom. Tonight, I'm really letting it go.

  I stood up and went to the kitchen to take some tissue, when I came back I saw my reflection in the mirror, wow I was really bad and seem broken.. that's what I actually am, I stifle a sob with my hand and went back to my sofa near the TV.

  I decided that I've cried enought after capturing my reflaction, I wanted to watch some movie to change my mind, I opted for a funny movie " 21 jump street".

  I was in the middle of the movie, when someone knocked at the door, who's it? I'm not expecting anyone for what I know!

  END OF THE CHAPTE 

 Longest I've done till now (1493 words).

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