Dear victim,
The guilt is getting to me. I'm a asshole. Biggest asshole going. Why did I do what I did? Why did I treat you the way that I did? Why did I ruin someone's life?
I wish someone would ruin my life. I wish someone would slowly tear me down the same way I did to you. I wish I was broken.
Why can't you be here to forgive me, so I can get back to my normal life. So that I could invent a way to turn back time and reverse all the pain and suffering I put you through.
Sam. I'm really sorry.
I said I didn't want presure on uploading yet I got a few horrible messages telling me to upload I disappeared for 6 months why am I not consistent. I'm sorry but I'm struggling with my issues and battling my demons I need time I was also admitted back into hospital and when I got out I wasn't allowed my phone for obvious reasons. I don't want to wish away this book because it's quite a big part of me but I've no choice I just want it done so I can start writing something different, ps epilogue of a book I'll be publishing every second day starting next week is Upton should read it.
