「Children who were abandoned by their family...strongly endures aren't they? You need your heart to be more durable...」
Natou-senpai spoke sadly
「But...A child who can endure an unbearable situation, is abnormal as expected」
「You see, humans say 『I'm lonely!』when they're sad, say 『It hurts』when they're in pain, 『I don't want it』when they don't like something, they say 『I'm hungry』when they're hungry, If they don't have someone to tell their feelings honestly...when enduring it has become normal, their hearts would be numb as expected! They'd go crazy!」
「...Then, they'll break」
「Just like you!」
「...Just like us」
Margo-san and Natou-senpai's eyes were lonely...
...Err
...I
...I see, I'm broken...
「It seems that you haven't noticed it yourself?」
Margo-san smiled wryly.
「Y-Yes...I'm sorry」
「You have three symptoms showing up...First is what you just said, 『Not refusing whatever is instructed』」
「Of course, in Yoshida-chan's case, it's only the 『People who you think you like』!」
「You calmly accept the possibility that your body or environment would be hurt in the future. You're not hesitating on the possibility that you yourself would suffer a loss...!」
「In other words you see, you don't have anything!」
I...don't have anything?
「Normal people you see, thinks of their current self, what composes him as a human as very important. That's why, they'd protect that above everything!」
「Their own dream, or their hopes for future, a beloved family, or friends...」
「But you see, Yoshida-chan doesn't have any of those!」
「...That's why you can move your body calmly in such a dangerous situation. You don't have any fear of losing the current environment or your hope for the future...」
「Yoshida-chan...you normally think that 『I don't care what happens from now on. No one would be troubled even if I die』...don't you?」
「You're nihilistic...or should I say that you're already at the farthest point of despair...」
Certainly...I live with that kind of feeling.
There's no way my life would be happy ahead of this...
Having sex with Yukino is probably my highest point in life.
And...This shouldn't continue forever.
It's special case right now and there's now way this will continue...
There's no way for me to be always lucky happy.
I'll get caught by the police eventually...or get killed by Endou.
Or maybe Yukino...
The remainder of my life will surely be miserable...
I'll just writhe and die in the depths of despair...
But, that's fine...
In exchange...I was able to embrace Yukino...!!
I have no regrets...!
「...Well, I have the same symptoms after all!」
...Natou-senpai?
「...Me too」
...Margo-san too
「You see...I can go and walk around the place in Tokyo where there's a lot of people, naked and pee there when Yuzuki-sensei orders me! I don't care even if it's broadcasted worldwide...Because, I don't care about my future anymore already」
「Me too...I can hurt anyone as long as Sensei orders me. I won't hesitate to kill either. Even if it's the president of America...as I don't care about my life anyway」
「If I say in reverse...I can somehow live by having Yuzuki-sensei take out various orders...!」
「Right...I don't have any will to do anything. I don't care about anything at all. There's nothing important to me at all...!」
「...Yoshida-chan's the same right?!」
...Natou-senpai smiled gently.
「No...Yoshida-kun's case is 『Break』is much more intense than us. It shows remarkably on the second symptom...!」
