「Women who lose their virginity to rape...are greatly divided into two types depending on their interactions with sex」
Yuzuki-sensei's talking while drinking her wine.
「I know it well...In this mansion when it was『Kuromori Tower』, I saw plenty of women...I'm one of them too...」
...Right
Yuzuki-sensei was raped by Shirasaka Sousuke when she was 12...
「One would be the girl being absorbed in sex to override their rape experience. Drowning themselves to remove their memory of fear. Misuzu-san's that type」
Certainly...Misuzu's indulging herself in sex...
「It's not a lewd nature in particular...Trying to get over the fear from the rape, they try to lie to themselves and have sex assertively. Convincing themselves that they had sex by their own will...」
...Misuzu was like that.
「Misuzu-san's actually scared... Yesterday, you had sex with Misuzu-san in the bathroom didn't you?」
「...Yes」
「That's the time when she finally trusted you. I think she was frightened in her heart until then...Do you remember? Yesterday before you had sex with Misuzu-san, she told you『I want you to trust me soon』]?」
Speaking of which...I feel that she said such thing.
「That's reversed. Actually, Misuzu-san thought was that she wants to 『Trust』you. She reflects her own wish to you and spoke...」
...I see
「Do you remember that Misuzu told you 『I want to be violated』...Didn't you?」
「...I do」
「Actually, there's still some fear remaining for sex...That's why she said that. She wants you to force having the sex instead of by her own will...」
I...
I never understood Misuzu's feeling at all...
I just followed my own desire.
I'm the worst.
「At that time...Misuzu said that she wants to be my sex slave」
Sensei laughs.
「Do you really think that there's a girl who would want to become a man's slave?」
「...I don't」
...I
「It was really a dangerous state...You did rape play didn't you?」
...We did
I got very aroused though...
For Misuzu, it wasn't that different from real rape...
「If Misuzu-san gave up in despair because of that rape play, she might really have become your sex slave...」
Sensei says.
「You see...There's no endlessly lewd woman in this world. Among the prostitutes, there are occasional women who makes that play. A girl that has no forbidden plays, all okay. That kind of person isn't a helpless lecherous person... They just gave up. Throwing their own life...Thinking that it's already hopeless...therefore they accept anything. They have no choice but to accept」
...They gave up in life?
「Those kinds are okay with anyone. They're not looking at the man's face. They just surrender themselves to the pleasures in their body... They get scared when they look at reality...they became ashamed that they want to die. Therefore, they close their eyes to indulge themselves in the pleasures of sex, and concentrate only on the sexual feeling...!」
Sensei gulps down the glass.
「...I was the same」
...Sensei
