" Beyonce why didn't you tell me this stuff way back when" my mom asked getting teary eyed
" I didn't want him to come near any of you and solo and especially my juju" I said
" that's not the point baby he could've been locked up a while back" she said
" I know mama and I'm sorry I should've said something but I felt like it was my battle to fight" I said
" Beyonce don't do stupid shit like that ever again" my mom said
She never curses at me or my sister or anybody in general so I knew she was really upset with me at the moment. I really just want her to understand that I was only trying to protect them.
" I'm sorry mama" I said looking down
" and from now on no more secrets is their anything else you want to tell me before I get a call saying your dead" she said wiping her tears
" no ma'am" I said
" Sky's upstairs sleeping I'll drop her off when she's up go ahead and head home and get prepared to explain to her why jays limping" she said
I nodded standing up as tears fell from my eyes
I made my way to my truck getting in and proceeding to go home. I wasn't going to explain to my four year old that her daddy had been stabbed but I will explain to her that he's been hurt.
Pulling in the driveway I make my way inside seeing all the lights turned down like I left them. I walked into the bedroom kicking my shoes of seeing jay laying on the bed asleep.
" baby" I said pecking his lips softly
He woke up and smiled
" hey baby" he said finally realizing I had been crying
" how's your wounds" I asked preparing to change the bandages
" I'm feeling alright but what's up with you what's wrong" he asked
" don't worry about me let's get these wounds changed and cleaned up" I said removing the bloody bandage
" no baby tell me what's wrong" he said
" my mom" I sighed
" what happened" he asked
" she's basically saying all this is my fault which it is I just wish that she would understand I was only doing this for them so he wouldn't come after them" I sighed
" it's not your fault at all he's crazy but you won't ever have to worry about him again" he said
" no jay it's my fault I brought y'all into my ex mess let me take the fall for this I'm a big girl" I said pulling his shirt down after cleaning and re bandaging the wounds
He didn't say anything after that partial because he knew I would clap back and that I was annoyed. I wasn't in the mood to fight with him.
I left the bedroom going to the living room turning on the television. After watching a couple of movies I saw Shawn limping to the door with his car keys.
" and where are you going the doctor said for you to rest" I said standing up walking towards him
" I'm going out for some air that's all " he said
" I can drive" I said
" I'm good I don't need you" he yelled slightly annoyed
" what " I whispered offended
" I just need some air Beyonce please" he said before existing the door
Part of me wanted to run after him but I didn't want to make a fool out of myself. I know he's upset about how I came at him but in the end it's all a misunderstanding. The doorbell rang and and I'm assuming my baby was here.
" mommy" sky yelled as I opened the door
" my baby" I yelled kneeling down to her level as she wrapped her arms around my neck
" I missed you mommy" she said
" I missed you too baby" I said pecking her lips
" where's daddy" she said
" he's out he's on his way back but daddy got injured so you can really play with him rough" I said
" how is he okay " she asked
" yes and he got into a fight but it's all taken care of so don't worry about that daddy will be good as new in no time okay" I said kissing lips again
" okay" she smiled running to her room
My mom stood there
" thanks for looking after her" I said
" no need for the thank you and Beyonce about earlier I'm sorry I didn't understand where you were coming from but I do now" she said
" it's okay mama " I slightly smiled
" call me tomorrow" she smiled
" I will mama " I said
" goodnight bb I love you " she said
" night ma I love you too" I said before closing the door after seeing her get into her car
After getting sky settled and in bed I went to the bedroom to prepare myself for bed only thing is I was to concerned about jay.
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I woke up the next morning and no jay next to me. I sighed heavily and made my way to check on sky who's still sound asleep. I'll just lay back down for a minute. I got back into bed hearing the front door open and someone coming up the stairs.
I seen jay limping in the room in different clothes he left in. He walked into the room completely ignoring me and going to the closet to grab a bag as if he was about to pack something.
" jay " I said getting up sitting at the edge of the bed
He looked up
" can we just talk" I asked
His face softened and he leaned on the door fram of the closet
" I'm sorry about last night I didn't mean to come at you the way I did I just wish people would let me take my faults I'm not little anymore and part of me is also still over protective when you left out yesterday my whole mind wondered because I love you so much and I just needed you to comfort me in a time like this I waited up and you didnt show" I said
" I know and I just want you to realize that you have a man in the house now and it's nothing wrong with me trying protect you so fucking what if your ex was crazy your mines now and I deserve the right to protect you" he said
" I know and I'm sorry I really am sorry " I said
"Come here" he said
I walked over to him and he embraced me in a hug
" please don't ever walk out again" I said into his chest
" I won't" he said holding me tighter
