Don't let go.

The fear of not being good enough.

*Jack's P.O.V*

Alex had his arm wrapped around me and zack, rian, alex, and I were watching home alone. The movie sadly finished a few hours later. I could always watch it again, it's only the best movie ever!

"Well, I think me and zack will be heading home, we'll leave you to love birds alone." I could see alex was blushing like crazy. I was probably blushing just as much. We both looked at eachother and smiled and then looked away.

"Okay, see ya later guys." I heard alex say. I waved goodbye and they both headed out the door. My mom still wasn't home thankfully. Alex got on top of me, and started kissing me roughly. Soon we pulled apart to catch our breath,

"So what do you wanna do jacky?" he breathed out, smirking. I set my hands gently on his waist and pulled him on to me slowly

"Just this." I kissed him slowly, and licked his bottom lip, asking for enterance. He opened his mouth and I slid my tongue in, his tongue was exploring every inch of my mouth, and so was mine. He slid his hands into my shirt and pulled it off, I pulled his shirt off too. We started kissing again and it was a lot more passionate. Both our skin touching, this felt amazing. I started sucking and nibbling on his neck, earning a soft moan from him. I smirked at the purple mark I had left on his neck. I started kissing his stomach, making him moan louder. I slowly moved my hands onto his hips and squeezed them gently, and went back to his soft lips. We pulled apart and started cuddling.

"Hey lex?" He looked down at me and smiled

"Yes jacky?" I started making circles on one side of his waist and avioded eye contact from him.

"W-What are we?" He took a deep breath,

"Well jacky, what do you want us to be?" I looked at him with an innocent face.

"More than best friends." I said, feeling ashamed, I bowed my head down. He put two fingers on my chin and lifted my head up

. "If that's what you want jacky, that's what you'll get." He pressed his lips softly on mine. I pulled away gently

"S-So we're together?" He nodded.

"And that means, I want none of this." He pointed at my wrist and I sighed and looked away.

"Jacky c'mon. I love you, do you have any idea how much it hurts to see you hurting yourself, and i'm not able to help you? It's fucking hell jack. It's so frustrating." I didn't see it like that. I looked up at alex

"I'm sorry. I'll try not to do it again lex." I actually meant it this time. He nodded and grabbed both my wrist gently and kissed every cut I had. I smiled and kissed him

"Thank you lex." He pulled me closer and kissed my and then whispered in my ear

"I love you jacky." Chills went down my spine, I whispered back "I love you too, lexy." He took a deep breath

"So, we're making it official?" I nodded. We both smiled at each other. My mom arrived and saw us cuddling, shirtless.

"Hello boys. I see your day was fine today?" We both blushed and looked away, she laughed

"Well, you guys should get going to bed, tomorrow you have to go to school." We both nodded and walked upstairs. I stripped down to my boxers and so did alex. We both got into bed, he wrapped his arm around my waist and rested his head on my chest. I pulled him closer and wrapped my arm around his shoulders.

"Goodnight jacky." I smiled and kissed his forehead.

"Goodnight lexy." Today was sunday, and I didn't have a good feeling about tomorrow.