Don't let go.

Tragedy strikes.

*Jack's P.O.V*

I hung up the phone and threw it across my room, making it land in a bin of dirty clothes. The words alex had said...Did he mean them? I worry for those who I care about. was all my head was repeating. Bullshit. He couldn't even risk seeing me for a couple of minutes? Tears began to stream down my face again. I stared at my wrist, remembering what alex had said on sunday. Do you have any idea how much it hurts to see you hurting yourself and i'm not able to help you? Flashbacks of him kissing my scars. The voice inside my head came back, Go on jack, do it. Who cares what alex said. It's not like you promised. I curled up on the floor and started crying. The voice inside my head was right. I never promised alex anything. I wiped the tears off my face and grabbed the blade from my bed. I dragged the blade across my pale skin, making each cut deeper. Come on jack, just one more cut and you'll be done. The voice in my head repeated, I heard a voice downstairs, without thinking, I dragged the blade across my wrist making the last cut, deeper than any other. I felt like throwing up, and my eyes were getting heavy, I tried getting up but I was losing balance, the room started moving around. I heard someone pounding on my door, it sounded like alex, shouting and sobbing. No....He couldn't be here. It's all in my head "Jack open this fucking door right now!" I fell to the ground and everything went pitch black.

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I opened my eyes tiredly, I heard beeping, and I was in a white pale room, in a white bed. I was in a hospital. I looked over to my right and saw alex, with his red, and puffy eyes. He had his face in his hands, crying. "I'm so fucking selfish." I smiled "I know." I mumbled. He looked up at me in shock "Jack!" he threw himself onto me and hugged me. He whispered in my ear, "I thought you said you wouldn't do it again jack..." I looked at him in the eyes. "I thought you promised you would never leave." He sighed, "Besides, I never promised you anything. I never promised I wouldn't cut myself, I just said I'd try not to." I pushed him off me, and winced in pain. I couldn't feel my right wrist, the cut was pretty deep. It was all stitched up but it looked horrible. "Your mom came but she had to leave, she was here for about an hour or three, she was waiting for you to wake up, but she had to go to work." I nodded, "So i'm taking you home, and i'm staying there till your mom comes." I laughed bitterly. "You're taking me home, and then your fucking leaving alex. I want nothing to do with you. I don't want you in my fucking house." He looked at me, I could see how hurt he was in his eyes. "Jacky, I just need time." I sighed, I knew what he was talking about. "Whatever. I don't want you in my fucking house. You drive me home, you drop me off. You leave." He sighed and nodded "If that's what you want, that's what you'll get, are you satisfied now?" I looked at him in the eyes and laughed. "Satisfied? Am I fucking satisfied? Well alex lets see, did I get what I wanted when I asked you to risk at least a few minutes of seeing me each day? Did I get what I wanted when-" He interrupted me "No, but you almost got what you wanted today. Death." He practically yelled. "Do you have any idea jack, do you have any fucking idea how much it'd kill me to live without you, i'd probably have nothing else to live for. I'd be fucking done jack." I scoffed. "What? You think i'm gonna pity you? I don't need your pity, and I won't pity you. Because If I start pitying people, who's gonna pity me? No one. I can do this on my fucking own alex. I've had plenty of people leave me. And say what you say, I'm never gonna leave I promise. That's bullshit. Don't ever bullshit like that with me again. I'm fucking tired of your bullshit." He looked at me in disbelief. "I've been bullied my whole life for being bisexual. And your afraid? Pathetic. You think I wanted to be bisexual? You think I just woke up one day and im like Okay jack! You're gonna be bisexual! No alex. That's not how it fucking works. And I'll stand for my rights, even if it means standing alone." He was crying now. The doctor came in, "Ah jack, I see your awake. You can go home now if you want." I nodded and he closed the door. I got up slowly being careful not to use my right wrist and walked out of the room with alex. I could tell he was staring at me, it took all I had to say what I had said to alex. I couldn't believe I did say it. I stepped into alex's car and looked out the window. The drive home was silent. He pulled over and parked in front of my house. I stepped out of the car, and so did alex. "Where are you going?" I laughed. "Inside." He responded casually. "Uh, no your not. You dropped me off. You can leave now alex. Or else you'll get caught by josh, and he'll ruin what's left of your life." He looked me in the eye, I admit, what I said was pretty rude. "Listen jack. I know your fucking mad, but you have no right to talk about my life. You understand?" I nodded quickly, "I'm going inside, and that's that." He walked passed me and grabbed the key from under the carpet and unlocked the door. I stood there, outside, staring at the floor in disbelief. "You coming in?" I heard a voice call. I ran inside, we both sat apart from eachother on the couch, flipping through channels. I heard the door open and I saw my mom step in. She dropped everything and hugged me. "Jacky! Oh thank god you're safe! Don't ever scare me like that again!" I sighed "Alright mom, i'm fine thank you." She nodded "Alex would you like to sleep over?" He smiled "No joyce. No thank you. I think i'll be heading home now. Goodbye jack." I mumbled a goodbye and he left. "I'm gonna go to sleep mom, goodnight." She hugged me and smiled "Goodnight jacky." 

*Alex's P.O.V*

I woke up, feeling empty and tired. I got up and took a quick shower. After that I picked out whatever I saw in my closet, which was a pair of vans, a blue t-shirt and some black skinny jeans. I put the clothes on, brushed my hair, and skipped breakfast, I grabbed the keys said goodbye to my mom and got in my car. Today is tuesday. The second day, i've been ignoring jack. I wonder how long i'll have to ignore him, i'll have to ask josh. I pulled over and parked in the school parking lot. I saw josh and ran up to him "Hey alex." I yawned. "Morning." He laughed "You look like pure shit. What the fuck happened to you?" I rolled my eyes "When can I talk to jack?" He paused for a second "Hm, two weeks, or so." My eyes widened "Two weeks?!" Josh nodded and smirked "What? Can't handle it? Come on gaskarth. Be honest with me. You like him." I was so fucking sleepy I wasn't even thinking "Yeah josh, I love him okay. I hope your fucking happy for destroying me." I walked away without saying another word, the day dreaded on, I fell asleep in class a few times and caught myself staring at jack in other classes. I noticed he was talking to a girl and laughing. She had red hair and she was pale. I've seen her before, she definitely wasn't new to this school. They seemed to be talking to him a lot. The bell rang and I rushed down to lunch, I didn't grab anything and just sat  next to josh and watched him talk to his friends. I saw jack and that girl pass by me. Hand in hand. After they left the lunch room I told josh I was going to the bathroom. After I got out of the lunchroom I saw jack pushing the girl up against the wall, her legs wrapped around him, and they were both kissing. I stopped in my tracks and jack saw me, and so did that...that girl. I think her name...Her name was Jenna? Jenna. Yep. They both looked over at me. "Alex I-" I just smiled and nodded, then walked away. I couldn't believe...I mean....how could he do that? I sighed and headed back to class. Jack was in it, I stepped in the classroom and took a seat at the back. Jack walked over to me "Alex, i'm sorry, please let me explain-" I sighed "Jack, I really don't wanna hear it. I'm really just tired and done with everything at this point. I told josh the truth. I told him I loved you, and that I still do. I was going to tell him that I'm gonna start hanging out with you again because I couldn't last any longer without you. But I see your already on your way to replace me." I could see jack was speechless. "I hope your happy jack, I really do. That's all that matters to me now." The class started "Barakat, sit in your seat." The teacher called out. He walked over to his seat, soon the class was done, and the day was over. I saw jenna and jack, her arm wrapped around his waist and his arm draped around her shoulder. I really hated the sight of them, together. But, if it makes jack happy. That's all that matters to me now.