Therapy: Life With Alex Gaskarth

Chapter 9

HEY everyone kept giving me shit for Zayn so I changed his name to Shane plus I'm not weirdly in love with 1D anymore so YOU'RE WELCOME SORRY FOR BEFORE OKAY BYE

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Sarah's POV

*Three months later*

I went up to the desk at the hospital to retreive my belongings. I smiled warmly at Alice, the nurse at the desk who had been such a sweetheart during my stay. She looked up at me and returned the smile. 

"How are you sweetie?" she asked handing me my medication. While in the treatment center I'd learned that not only did I have anxiety, but I had manic depression...aka bipolar disorder. It explained a lot considering the symptoms they warned me of. 

I swallowed the pills quickly and replied, "I'm...better. I'm actually checking out now. It's my last day!" 

"So it is! Have you gotten everything from your room?" she asked me while getting my other belongings.

I nodded while biting my nail. Being in this hospital for so long has helped me a lot. I never even thought that I could have bipolar disorder. I never thought I had a problem with addiction to cutting and self harming. I never thought I was so depressed. It was a real eye-opener.

I gave Alice a hug and continued to sign out waiting for the doctor to give me the rest of my perscription for my medication. I felt a tap on the shoulder and turned around to expect my doctor. But instead I turned around to see the face of Shane. 

Shane was a boy I met in group therapy. He suffered from clinical depression and anxiety. His parents moved to America from the UK when he was fourteen. He'd really grown close to me. He was supposed to be out soon too. He and i talked a lot and got really close. We were really able to relate to each other on a level that no one else could with us. 

Hid dark grey eyes looked into my green ones as he spoke "I'm really gonna miss you Sarah," he said. I smiled holding back a tear. 

"I'll miss you too Shane. Thank you for everything," I said giving him a big hug. 

"Anytime babe," he joked smiling in his British accent. I laughed, he was a really sweet friend. 

"Well you have my number for whenever you leave here and I'll always be willing to meet up and talk, yeah?" I said to him. He gave me another hug and I kissed his cheek.

"Bye Shane," I said with a sad smile. 

"Bye babe," he said causing my face to flush a little. 

The doctor gave me the rest of my medication and I was ready to go. I glanced at my watch, Rian was supposed to pick me up as soon as I got out. Pretty much all of the guys knew about my treatment except for Alex. I hadn't spoken to him in three months. Now, it was Christmastime, the week before to be exact.

A familiar car drove up as Rian and Cass stepped out. I smiled as I walked toward them, hugging Rian and then Cassadee.

"How are you?!" she asked excitedly.

"Uh, better I guess," I said with a small smile. She hugged me again.

"We missed you so much. I'm not gonna lie, Travis cried a couple times," Rian said. I playfully hit him laughing.

"You ass, I called him every night from their phone!" I said.

"I was kidding jeeze! So you finally got your phone back! Did you turn it on yet?" he asked.

I was hesitant to turning it on. I didn't want to see if Alex had tried to contact me at all.

"I..will now," I said. I pressed the button on my iPhone and the screen lit up. In seconds it went to my home screen, a picture of me and Trav in New Jersey together.

I let the phone go, random messages and alerts. Then I looked down. 56 messages from Alex. 56. Holy shit.

They were all various ones asking to call as soon as I could, asking if I was okay, asking where I was.

I ignored them all and wiped away the stray tears that fell. "Let's just get home," I said as they both nodded.

When we finally pulled up to the house I practically ran inside. I  ran up to my room flopping down on my bed. I settled back in and laid down again.

Rian knocked on my door, "Hey we're gonna go out to eat and celebrate you coming home. You, me, Cass, Trav, Jack, Zack, Vinny, Matt, Evan, Jonathan, and some surprise guests," he smirked.

I smiled and nodded, "Alright Ri, I'm kind of tired though, do you think I could just take a little nap before?" I asked yawning.

"Sure, we'll wake you up in time to get ready, and Sar?" he asked.

"Yeah?" I asked turning around. He hugged me. "I'm really glad you're home and you're okay," he said.

"Me too Ri, me too," I replied.

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"Oh my god! John! Jordan! Tay! Everyone!" I yelled as my "surprise guests walked into the restaurant.

Itturns out the surprises were two of my very best friend bands The Maine and We Are The In Crowd! I loved both bands so much. Tay was practically my best friend next to Travis.

Tay immediately hugged me. "How are you girl?!" she asked. I called her a lot while in the treatment center.

"I'm...okay," I said. She smiled as I continued to hug the two bands.

"John! Kennedy! Garrett! Pat! Everyone!" I yelled to the Maine.

They each came over and gave me a big hug, "Oh my god Sarah I haven't seen you since you were a blonde with long hair!" John said.

I laughed, "Well, I cut and dyed it!" I said sitting next to Tay on one side and Travis on the other.

"Okay, I'm definitely getting sushi, I missed this place so much!" I said. I looked up getting no response. "What?" I asked everyone.

Then I saw what. I looked over to see Alex standing there, hands in his pocket taking a seat.