I'm not ready for this to occur. I'm so unprepared for him to find out about my attraction to him.
I love him but I can't tell him. He's like my god. I just want to know what he is doing for me. I do pretty well at the job he assigned me, serving him. I just did it out of the goodness in my heart. I think he'll make some sort of a difference in this kingdom.
Whatever he does, I'm sure that he'll do a great job at it. I always just think of him. I can't blame him for anything. Even though he finds himself responsible for his father's death. I don't want him to think in that way. He isn't any less of a man than Uther. I just can't tell him the truth about me. I'm not ready for him to find out. Not this way.
