Why single?

chapter 8

You're right! I am just an ordinary.
I admit that I am not pretty and sexy.
My skin are'nt white because it is a light brown
My eyes are'nt big because its just an ordinary shape.
Its not green,blue or whatsoever but I do have a brown eye color.
My nose is'nt pointed like foreigner's or like your pointed nose  because I do have a flat nose -- well still I love my nose
My lips is'nt red as apple nor kissable lips because I do have a simple one
I am not tall because I admit I am short. I am not the type of girl who is perfect in everything because I am not perfect. Its okay!
You are the only person step in my boundary -- you broke the line as simple as it is. Yes you make me special but unfortunately, its just a dream that no matter what you wish it will never come true.All things faded piece by piece. I thought you're different -- as in you're not like them but why you hurt me so badly?
I approach you one time yet you suddenly ignore me.
That day, corridors are wide open but why you seem suffocated when Im around.
I can't take this no more so I dragged you out from the library into the janitors room --where we first met.
"what's wrong with you?" I asked you but you did'nt reply me back. I asked you one more time "Did I did something wrong?" but still no explicit answer.
Do you know how I feel? Suddenly I thought that I am being an idiot. Barking someone who is not worth to bark.
I told you that ' okay ' Im not going to bother you no more but you suddenly speak.
"Don't bother me forever. I am done with your annoying presence. I just come in your way because I thought it would be fun. I admitted that day by day I fell in love with you but you turned me down and thanks for that because you wake me up from being a ridiculous idiotic person. Its a relief that you rejected me because if not I will never be happy in love with you. So get out of my way ugly duckling" you told me.
I suffered sorrow and betrayal for almost a day. I cried all night but something hit me.
No matter how I tried my best to socialize it won't work out because it turns out that in the end it really ended not so good. So I really pomised that I am bunned to social world.