drowning in tears | leon & violetta ✓

nineteen

"drowing in tears"

Leon placed her by the table as Camila and Francesca placed her breakfast in front of her. Violetta placed a weak smile on her lips. She grabbed the piece of brown bread from her plate and brought it to her mouth.

Her face was still red from crying. Her tiny hands were shaking and her energy was empty. Leon sat himself down next to Violetta and ate something as well.

She was quiet, too weak to say anything. Every moment of the day she was thinking about the fact that she would never be able to walk again. 

Leon knew she was thinking about that, but he had no clue what to do. He would do anything in this world to make his dear girlfriend smile again. She was quietly eating her breakfast, lost in her thoughts. 

Normally Leon knew what she was thinking about, but now he had no single clue. Her eyes were empty and her body showed no language either.

She was lost and he didn't know how to find her. Her plate was empty as she stood up and climbed in her wheelchair.

Slowly she drove away from the table, towards the couch. The three others were hopelessly looking at Violetta. She tried to get on top of the couch, but she wasn't able to. Leon noticed she was struggling as he quickly moved himself towards her.

He lifted her weak body out of the wheelchair and sat her down on the couch. No single word left her mouth, she was in her own world. Her eyes only showed an empty look, Leon had no idea what she was thinking.

Violetta took her phone from her pocket and unlocked it, not loooking up at Leon anymore. Leon didn't know what to do and he just walked back to Camila and Francesca.

"What can we do? I can't leave her like this, she is so depressed and weak" Leon hopelessly said while he dropped himself on a random chair in the kitchen.

The girls turned their eyesight towards Martina. She was sitting on the couch, staring blindly at something on her phone. A single tear left her right eye. She was trying to fight against her tears but it was impossible.

"Vilu?" Francesca tried while she stood up and walked closer towards her best friend. No reaction came from Violetta's way, not one movement. It was like her soul had dissapeared, only her empty body was left.

The tears kept leaving the brunettes eyes, but it was like she didn't even notice she was crying. She was curled up into her own, tiny body. Leon walked behind Francesca as they both looked at the silent human being.

A few shivers streamed over her body on which Leon took a blanket and placed it over her body. She didn't react on it tho, she kept her eyes focust on her phone.

"Please just talk to us" Leon begged, stroking her cheek with his muscled hand.

Not that she had any reaction this time, she was empty. Leon gave up and walked towards the kitchen, dragging Francesca with him.

Deep down Violetta wanted to answer and be herself again, but the negative feelings in her body were bigger. She was so depressed, so traumatised.

The moment of falling kept repeating in her mind. The fact that she wouldn't be able to walk was stuck in her thoughts 24/7.

She wanted to dance, to run, to jump, to walk, just to be normal again. She wanted to perform, sing and dance with her fans. But she couldn't.

And that fact would stay with her forever. She wanted to fight, to be strong, but she felt so weak. Like nothing was left anymore, not one piece of positivity. 

-

It has been 2 days since Violetta had said something. She stopped talking, eating and sleeping. The entire day she sat on her bed, staring at her phone or out of her window.

All her friends and family were worried as hell. Everyone tried everything they could to talk to her, or to let her eat something, but she didn't. She had a depression.

She was crying all day long, non stop. She didn't take enough care of herself and wouldn't let others do it for her. Leon tried to help her several times, almost every minute. 

Leon felt like someone had ripped out his heart everytime a tear left her eyes. Violetta didn'tlet anyone close to her, she pushed every single person away. So Leon couldn't hold her, kiss her, help her, not even come close to her.

"Here, your favourite" Leon placed a plate with Violetta's favourite cake on her bed. Her eyes were locked with her phone, not even noticing Leon. His hope sunk back in his chest.

"Please eat it, do it for me. I love you" He looked up at the white ceiling, trying not to let the tears out. "I really do" He finished and walekd slowly out of the room.

Everytime he walked out he had a small piece of hope that she would turn to him and scream his name. But he knew she wasn't going to do that. He closed the door behind him and walked back to the living room, where now Herman was sitting with a total stranger.

"Hey Leon, I want you to meet the therapist" Herman said when he noticed Leon's presence. Leon walked closer and carefully shook the hand of the therapist.

"For Violetta?" Leon asked while he looked with an weird look towards the man. Herman nodded while he sat back down on the couch. Leon placed himself next to him. 

"And you think this is going to work?" Leon asked, his voice was full of disbelief. 

"Yeah, we need to try everything" You could see in Herman's eyes that he was hopeless as well.

"Are you out of your mind!? Why the hell would this work!? She doesn't want to talk to you, to me, to anyone. She doesn't let me hold her, touch her, nothing! She pushes everyone away and doesn't listen to any of us. Why the hell would she suddenly talk to a total stranger who knows nothing about her!?" He shouted while putting emphasis on the nothing.

"Leon, please-" Herman started but Leon was quicker.

"No! I don't get you Herman, this is ridiculous." Leon finished and stormed up the stairs.

He opened the door of Violetta's room and walked inside. Just then he realized that the plate where the cake was lying, was empty. A huge smile formed on his lips while he stared at the empty plate.

Violetta was now staring out of the window, not giving Leon any attention. This time he didn't care tho, she ate the cake.

< oml i wrote this chapter so quickly and i know it sucks btu idc. tomorrow im going on vacantion to Italy, so idk if i will be uploading. im going to be away for 3 weeks, so ill see if i can update or not. otherwise you guys just have to be patient! >                                                                            < manon >