sticks and stones may break my bones

//vent

boy howdy do i fucking love it when my parents ridicule me and call me names

all i wanna fucking do is hang out with one of my goddamn friends because? i've been feeling so lonely lately it's ridiculous???  ive gotten to the point where i start crying if i think abt it too mucj??

god

i almost never ask for anything these days bc my parents agree on saying no towards everything
hh

why cant i be like one of those normal kids that just had a curfew daily?

instead of having to ask every time i want to leave the house?? and get shot down ??

god i. want so badly to just run away but i know that once i inevitably come back my parents are gonna put a tracker on my phone and ground me for the rest of my fucking life

and i wonder why!! im addicted to the internet! and i wonder why! i never fuckint go outside! and i wonder why im just a disappointment

...

im just so fucking useless

i dont deserve to live 90% of the time and that's a solid fact

i mean what difference have i made in anyone's lives??? none

at least ive discovered who actually gives a shit about me and who easily forgets i exist by who's actually rried to contact me within the past month

i literslly have two friends whove made an effort towards interacting witj me lmao

sigh

i literally have. no actual problems in my life so why am i like this

god im just a stuck up bitch who only cares about themselves

but, well, that's todays issue of Mikumiku Overshares On the Internet  And Starts Bawling! come back tomorrow and i might post all the Really Bad vent chapters ive hidden away for the past couple months