sticks and stones may break my bones

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i just remembered that i have to make an obligatory olikase pride month drawing

but im already procrastinating on so much other art that i shouldve finished weeks agooo

plus uh. my useless gay heart is confused over whether i could be attracted to this girl who likes me

like,,, i never felt anything between us besides mutual gay power, and she's not really my type (i'm more of a lipstick lesbian oops)

im just... as i said, confused, but my anxiety spikes up too much whebever i think abt confronting her about it because i don't wanna hurt her feelings? like i want us to stay friends but i doubt she'd want that after crushing on me for so long? argh

i feel bad now for complaining about wanting a girlfriend for so long when im now realising that,,, i want my first gf to be someone i actually fall head-over-heels for, y'know? and that's kinda impossible at this rate

i mean i dont know how im supposed to attract any pretty girls when i myself look like a trainwreck, plus ive learned the hard way that flirting doesnt work out when youre too shy to even say hello to a girl you like