It's a long story. (Newt x reader) [COMPLETED]

Change in mood

Y/N seemed different. Very different. Her usual bright smile didn't shine as bright. It looked tight and forced.

She still danced at the bonfires. Made jokes with Frypan. Sneak Minho some extra food.

She still loved Newt.

Although she would hide as it seemed. After the bonfire was over she'd leave after giving Newt a peck on the cheek and disappear into her hut until she was needed again.

All the boys were filled with worry. Especially after she failed to leave her hut at all. They'd leave food at the door but it would remain untouched.

Newt would sit with his back against her door, just trying to persuade her to come out of her hut.

"Y/N please I know you can hear me." His voice would break. Knowing something was seriously wrong. They respected her privacy. They knew she was alive because they would hear the dreadful sounds of her tears.

"You need to eat, love." Newt would try again. Still not earning a response. He would sigh and make eye contact with Gally, Alby, Minho, and Frypan from across the green.

All four biting their nails anxiously.

The days would end with Newt falling asleep on the grass.

A week had gone by and there was still no luck from inside the girls hut.

"Hey, Y/N I brought some fresh food. I'll just leave it outside." Frypan knocked. When he didn't hear anything from inside he knocked again.

"Y/N?" His voice was filled with worry.

Still no response.

"Okay Y/N this isn't funny anymore!" Frypan yelled. "Guys! I think somethings wrong." And with that sentence, everyone stopped what they were doing. Running over to the small wooden building.

"Move! Move!" Newt pushed through the crowd reaching the door and slamming his weight into it. Trying to bust it open.

"Don't just stand there! Bloody help me!" His yelling broke the trance of the teenagers and multiple started slamming themselves into the door. Making it open with a crack.

"Y/N! Are you oka-" he froze. She was no where to be seen, her bed was made neatly and a note was placed on top of it.

"Dear boys
I know this is extremely selfish off me. But I've lost hope we'll ever get out of this place. I want to thank you for making me smile, laugh, and taking great care of me. Especially building me this hut.

Please don't be sad. This is all on me and you guys had no part in this. Please keep looking for a way out and please prove me wrong.

I'll miss you all.

But Newt. Please don't feel like you caused this. All those nights you sat outside my hut. I knew you cared. I was just too emotionally drained. I've left for the maze.

Only so you'd not follow.

I love you all. So so much.

Thank you for being my family.
-Y/N"

"She is in the maze! Maybe we can try and find her!" Newt yelled.

"Newt don't go out there." Alby ordered.

"Alby, this is Y/N we're talking about, you can't just expect me to not at least fight for her." He stated in disbelief.

"We have rules!"

"My Girlfriend is out there about to end her life! And I am going to find her! Alone or not!" Newt yelled. Turning on his heels and sprinting for the maze.

Calls were heard behind him but he didn't care.

"Newt wait!" He heard Minho call but he was already in the maze and down the first corridor.

He was prepared to search all night.

But he didn't have to look far, because when he turned the corner he saw the love of his life. Lying lifeless on the cold, grey, concrete.

He gasped and covered his mouth letting out a sob. He very rarely cried. But the scene infront off him broke is heart in more ways then one.

"Oh no, Y/N no. Come on love wake up." He lowered his body close to her, picking her up and holding her close as her head fell back.

"You're okay, you're okay, please wake up." He rocked her gently.

"Come on, we were going to get through this together. Get out of here. We were going to see what the world has in store for us. Remember? You can't leave me."

He sobbed burying his head into her hair soaking it with his tears.

"Newt. You just can't run into the- oh god!" Minho cut himself off when he saw the awful sight. His heart broke. More and more when he analysed further.

"Come on lets take her back, give her a proper burial." Minho reached to take her body from Newts arms but he couldn't due to the blonde turning away.

"Just a little while longer? Please? I just want to hold her." Newt's voice cracked. Tears stained his cheeks but were quickly replaced with fresh ones every time he blinked.

"I know, but the doors close soon, and we don't wanna be stuck in here." Minho stated. Holding back his tears.

"Okay, yeah okay." Newt nodded, he stood from the ground, holding Y/N closer as he carried her to the entrance of the maze.

The graders were all surrounding it. Gasps filled the air when the two boys turned the corner.

"No."

"We were too late."

"Not our Y/N."

Those were just a few of what filled the air. Alby tried to take her from Newt's arms but he had none of it.

He carried her towards the deadheads. That was there spot.

But one thing filled his mind. Guilt.

It was all his fault