Without A Kiss (Frerard)

3

Frank heard his phone ring. It was around 3 in the afternoon and Frank hadn't spoken to Gerard since yesturday. Gerard knew he was mad at him and he didn't blame him for it.

Frank picked up the phone "hello" he said, sounding tired and miserable.

"finally. you haven't been responding to any of my texts, is everything okay"

"no, Gerard. infact everything is awful right now"

"can I come over?"

"sure" Frank said

"okay be there soon"

"mmh" Frank hung up the phone and got changed into normal clothes

Gerard arrived in 5 minutes, walked into Frank's room and sat down.

Frank avoided looking at him

"still mad at me?" Gerard asked

Frank shrugged

"listen, I'm really sorry. I was just In a bad mood because of him. I really didnt mean to yell at you like that"

Frank shook his head "Gerard its not that"

"What is it then?"

Frank looked at his knee "its Bert in general. It's the fact that you can leave him and you wont. It's that im putting so much effort into trying to help you and stick up for you and it's just going to waste. Its that I still fucking love you and you claim to love me back but then go off and ditch me for an asshole"

Gerard frowned and Frank almost regretted what he said.

"frank-"

Frank shook his head and then placed it in his hands with his elbows resting on his knees "no- no I'm sorry I dont mean that..well kinda" He sighed

"Frank I do love you, you know that?" Gerard spoke softly

"yeah and I wish you didnt!" frank lifted his head back up to look at Gerard "I wish you only wanted me as a friend. infact, I wish you fucking hated me! I wish you would tell me I disgust you and kick me and then just abandon me because that would be much easier and damn, so much less painful" Frank had tears in his eyes but didnt let them fall.

"you really think that would be easier?" Gerard asked

"yes. It really fucking would" Frank mumbled "or maybe it would be better if I hated you. Maybe of we both hated each other. that would be great. actually, why dont we just forget all of this? push those feelings aside and act like we are just normal friends instead of two boys who are apart of the most cruel and unfair love story imaginable. let's just go eat ramen and get high" Frank said.

"I'm really sorry, Frank." Gerard didnt know what to say "but I like that idea. let's just be normal friends"

Frank nodded

"why dont we take a nap and cool off?" Gerard offered

Frank smiled "yeah let's do that"

Gerard smiled and laid down at the foot of Frank's bed. Frank fell asleep curled up next to him.

Frank woke up and gasped when he saw the clock. He shook Gerard "dude we've been asleep for 5 hours"

Gerard grumbled and opened his eyes slightly "what?"

"Its 8 at night" Frank said

"damn we been out for a while"

"uh yeah. you wanna just stay the night here then?" Frank asked