[ONGOING] Nothing could make Jaebum open up, he couldn't share his feelings, he couldn't show his emotions, he believed that he would never feel the things other people feel.
But then a boy moves into town, and Jaebum notices new feelings within hi...
Jaebum feels horrible. His body is hot and he is sweating way more than he's ever had in all of his 18 years of life.
After Mark had dropped him off at the clinic, he decided to just skip school and go home. But because he didn't drive himself to school, he would have to walk a long 30 minutes home.
Before, this wouldn't have bothered him. He was pretty healthy and walking wasn't a problem for him. But now, his body feels sick and shaky, and the sun's blaring heat doesn't help.
"God, I'm so fucking dumb." He mumbles under his breath, shakily making his way to a bus stop bench to rest.
As he sits, he thinks about the different things he felt today. His heart beating faster than ever, his face and body getting hot, his stomach doing somersaults everytime he thinks of Youngjae kissi-
There is it again. That same feeling.
Wiping the sweat off of his forehead with the back of his jacket sleeve, he hears a ping. He pulls his phone out and squints at the dark screen.
Dad- We will be coming home Friday for the neighborhood cookout, it's our turn to host. Make sure the house is clean by then.
With a groan, he shoves his phone into his front pocket and gets up.
It's just a couple minutes of walking. I can do that.
***
He throws himself onto the front door, holding onto the door's handle for dear life. Why the fuck is my body so weak?!
The sun's heat blares onto his back, and he can feel himself getting dizzy. Shakily reaching for his keys, he struggles to get his sweaty hand into his pant pocket.
He tries forcing his hand in but it doesn't go in any further. He furrows his eyebrows and bites his lip hard. He feels his body get hotter, his chest burning with something new.
"Just give me the keys!" He shouts, glaring at his pants. Breathing heavily now, he slides down the door and slumps onto his porch's wooden floors.
The sun was getting in his eyes, so he closes them and hopes for some kind of help or relief. I fucking knew today was going to be horrible.
"Uh- Jaebum h-hyung?" A familiar voice calls. Jaebum's eyes shoot open, he sits up swiftly which causes his head to ache.
Youngjae stands in front of him, a confused but genuine smile on his face. "Are you okay?" He steps closer, holding out his hand.
Jaebum feels his heart beat racing again. No! No. I'm not okay, and it's all your fault.
"M'fine." He mumbles out, trying to pick himself up. His hand finally pulls out of his pocket, which flips inside out, letting the key fall onto the floor.
He picks it up, stands up and turns his back to Youngjae. Staggering slightly, he fumbles with putting the key in the door. "Hyung... you look really sick. Lemme help." Youngjae insists, walking next to Jaebum and putting his hand on the older's lower back.
The younger then grabs the key out of his hand and puts it in the door himself. "Let's get you some water." He says calmly, pushing the door open and then slowly walking Jaebum inside.
"I- I don't need help." Jaebum blurts out, trying to shove Youngjae's hand away. Just having the younger around him makes his body react, and now with all the slight touches, he's sent into overdrive.
Trying to push the younger away, he trips over his own feet, an "oof" leaving his mouth as he makes impact with the floor.
Why body? Why?
"Hyung, just- just lay there and don't move okay?" Youngjae sighs, closing the front door. The sun's rays are blocked by the now closed door, and the cool air from the house surrounds him, but he still feels really hot.
"Did you eat or drink anything today?" Youngjae asks, taking his shoes off and leaving them by the front door. Jaebum watches, sweat sliding down his face and neck. "Spring roll." He mumbles out unintentionally.
Youngjae pauses, a smile making its way onto his face. Then he starts laughing, his oddly adorable laugh, which Jaebum happens to like.
"Pfftt- I'm sorry. I don't know why I found that funny."
Jaebum's stomach flips again, and as if it was on a rollercoaster. His chest and heart ache as well, all because of this boy. And he simply doesn't understand why.
All of sudden, he feels nauseous. Eyes opening wide, he quickly gets off the floor and clumsily runs to the guest bathroom. Slamming the door behind him, he rushes to the toilet and throws up.
His body shakes with each heave, tears leave his eyes and fall onto the toilet seat. After a few small minutes, he finishes and flushes the toilet. Then leans against the glass walls of the shower, a headache brewing.
He hears a knock on the door, "Um... I have some water, hyung. Can I come in?" Youngjae whispers, feeling bad for the older. Jaebum croaks out a yes, and then sees the younger slowly peek his head into the bathroom.
With weak eyes, he watches as Youngjae shuffles closer to him, a cup in his hand. "I'm sorry you're sick, and uh- I'm also sorry for coming into your house uninvited." Youngjae mumbles, biting his bottom lip after. He kneels in front of the older and hands him the cup.
"It's fine. You're helping me," He states as he shakily grabs the cup and holds it up to his lips, drinking slowly. "... thanks." He says quietly, avoiding eye contact.
I feel exposed.
After hearing the thanks, Youngjae can't help but smile. A big bright smile. He loves helping, really. His cheeks flush a light pink. "I hope you feel better. I should get home." Youngjae states, standing up quickly.
"Classes are still going on though," Jaebum states matter of factly, "Why are you going home so early?" Youngjae stills at this, his teeth gnawing on his bottom lip relentlessly.
"Uh- um. I just wanted to go home and see my dog, she's not used to being alone." Youngjae concludes, a shy smile on his face. Jaebum simply nods, even though he can tell it was an obvious lie.
The younger leaves after that, not before helping the older to the living room and giving him some more water. Jaebum sinks into the couch and takes another sip from his cup.
This is not good.
~~~ Okay so Jaebum has NEVER felt emotions before, and with emotions come certain bodily functions. Like when being jealous your body and face heat up. Or when you feel anxious, which explains the stomach flips and queasiness.
Because he was bombarded with many different emotions in just one day, it took a toll on his body. I hope that explains this chapter a lil better.
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Also- I wonder what Youngjae was trying to hide. (REREADERS- DONT SPOIL ):<)
