AFTER. (lxc version)

Chapter 15.

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I change out of my pajamas and put on a new pair of jeans that I haven't worn yet. They are a little tighter than my usual pants but I need to do laundry so I don't have a choice but to wear them. My shirt is a simple black button up, sleeveless shirt with lace trim on the shoulders.

"Wow, I actually like your outfit a lot" Lucy tells me. I assume it is a compliment despite the surprise in her voice that she would actually like something I am wearing. I smile and she tries to offer me eyeliner again.

"Not this time" I tell her, remembering how it smeared from my tears last time. Why did I agree to go back there again?

"Vanessa is picking us up instead of Dinah, she just text me so she will be here any minute"

"I don't think she likes me" I know she doesn't.

"She does, she is just too honest sometimes and I think she is intimidated by you"

"By me? Why on earth would she be intimidated by me?" I laugh. I am the one intimidated by her.

"I think just because you're so different from us" she says and smiles. I know I am different from them but to me they are the "different" ones. "Don't worry about her she will be occupied tonight" she laughs.

"By Lauren?" I ask before I can stop myself. I can't help but notice the way she is looking at me with her eyebrow raised.

"No, by Normani probably. She changes girls every week." That's a harsh thing to say about her friend but she just smiles.

"She isn't dating Lauren?" The image of them making out on the bed comes into my mind.

"No way, Lauren doesn't date. She just messes around with people especially girls but she doesn't date anybody. Ever"

"Oh" is all I manage to say. She gives me a strange smile and grabs her purse.

"Let's go" she grabs my arm and pulls me outside.

The party tonight is the same as last week, tons of people, drunk people everywhere. Why didn't I just stay in and stare at my ceiling? Vanessa disappears as soon as we arrive and I end up getting a spot on the couch and staying there for at least an hour before Lauren walks by.

"You look.. different" she says as I stand up. Her eyes rake down my body and back up. She doesn't even try to be subtle about it. I stay silent and her green eyes meet mine. "Your clothes actually fit you tonight" she laughs. I roll my eyes and adjust my shirt, suddenly wishing I was wearing my normal loose clothing. "I am surprised to see you here"

"Yea.. I am surprised that I ended up here again." I say and walk away from her. She doesn't follow, but for some reason I find myself wishing she would have.

A few hours later, Lucy is drunk again, well everyone is drunk again. "Lets play truth or dare" Normani slurs and their small group of tattooed friends gather around the couch. Vanessa passes a bottle of clear alcohol to Dinah and she takes a swig. Lauren's hand covers her entire red cup as she takes a sip.

They all agree to play a drunken game of truth or dare which couldn't possibly end well. Another punk looking girl joins the game, making it Lauren, Normani, Dinah, Dinah's roommate Jessica, Vanessa,, Lucy, and the new girl. "You should play Camila" Vanessa says with a wicked smile.

"No, I'd rather not" I tell her and look away.

"Like she would actually play, she would have to stop being a prude for five minutes" Lauren tells them and they all laugh except Lucy. Her words anger me, I am not a prude. Yea, I will admit I am not by any means wild, but I am no prude. I glare at Lauren and sit down cross legged in their little circle, in between Dinah and the new girl. Lauren laughs and whispers something to Normani before they start.

The first few truths and dares include Normani being dared to chug an entire beer can, Vanessa being dared to flash their group her bra, (which she did) and finding out that Lucy has her nipples pierced.

"Truth or dare Chanch?" Dinah asks and I gulp.

"Truth?" I squeak. Lauren laughs and mutters "of course" I ignore her and Dinah rubs her hands together.

"Are you a virgin?" Dinah asks and I choke on my own breath. No one seems fazed by the intrusive question besides me. I feel the heat in my cheeks and the humor in everyone's faces.

"Well?" Normani says. Despite how much I want to run away and hide, I just nod. Of course I am a virgin, the furthest Matthew and I have gone sexually is making out and him touching my bottom, through my jeans of course. Besides, i never liked it no matter how much i like him.

No one seems surprised by my answer, just intrigued. "So you have been dating Matthew for two years and you haven't had sex?" Lucy asks and I shift uncomfortably. I just shake my head.

"Lauren's turn" I say, hoping to take the attention off myself.

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a/n: what will happennnnnnn next???????? :OOO JK HAVE A NICE DAY!! PEACEEEE