AFTER. (lxc version)

Chapter 24.

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"What the actual hell was that? You and Lauren.. you and Lauren are like messing around?" She asks me and covers her face in mock horror.

"No! No way! We aren't messing around" I tell her. Are we? No, we just happened to kiss, twice. And she took my shirt off, and I was basically humping her but we aren't messing around. "I have a boyfriend remember? And.... and im not a lesbian A little maybe."

"You're bi, Camila"

"Yeah okay bi, whatever. I still have a boyfriend" i said a little nervous.

"So, that doesn't mean you can't mess around with Lauren. I just can't believe this! I thought you guys hated each other. Well Lauren hates everyone but I thought she hated you even more than her normal hatred for people" she laughs. "When did this even.. how did this happen?"

I sit on her bed and run my fingers through my hair. "I don't know. Well Saturday when you left the party I ended up in her room because this creep tried to hit on me and I kissed Lauren. We promised to never speak of it again but then she came by today and she started messing with me, not in that way" I tell her after seeing her smirk grow. "Like she was throwing my stuff around and I pushed her and then somehow we ended up on the bed" I tell her. It sounds so bad as I repeat it. I really am acting "slutty" just like my mother said. I out my hands over my face, how could I do this to Matthew, again?

"Whoa, that sounds hot" Lucy says and I roll my eyes.

"It's not, its terrible and wrong. I love Matthew and Lauren is a jerk. I don't want to be another conquest of her."

"You could learn a lot from Lauren.. you know sexually" she says and my mouth falls open. Is she serious? Is that something she would do.. wait has she? Her and Lauren?

"No way, I don't want to learn anything from Lauren. Or anyone besides Matthew" I tell her. I can't imagine Matthew and I making out like that. My mind replays Lauren's words "You're so sexy, Camz" she said. Matthew would never say something like that. No one has ever called me that before. I feel my cheeks heat as I think about it. "Have you?" I ask her. I have to know if her and Lauren have slept together.

"With Lauren? No, well I haven't had sex with her but we had a little fling when we first met as embarrassing as that is to admit. But nothing came from it, we sort of do what friends dont normally do for about a week" she says like it's no big deal. I can't help the jealousy that stirs inside me.

"Oh.. really?" I ask, my mouth is completely dry and I find myself suddenly annoyed by Lucy.

"Yea, nothing too big. Just like a few heavy make out sessions, a grope or two. Nothing serious" she says and my chest hurts. I am not surprised really, but I wish I wouldn't have asked.

"Does Lauren do that with a lot of her other friends?" I don't want to hear the answer but I can't help but ask.

"Yea, she does. I mean not like hundreds but she's a pretty.. active lady" She says and I can tell she is sugar coating it for my sake. I make the mental decision for what feels like the hundredth time to stay away from her. I will not be anyone's hoe. Ever. "She doesn't do it to be mean or use girls, they pretty much throw themselves at her and she lets them know from the start that she doesn't date" she defends her. I remember her telling me that before.

"Why doesn't she date?" Why can't I stop asking these questions?

"I don't know really.. she just doesn't. I think you could have a lot of fun with Lauren, but I also think this could be dangerous for you. Unless you know you will never develop any sort of feelings for her I would stay away. I have seen a lot of boys and girls fall for her and it's not pretty" her voice is full of concern.