Camila Cabello is an 18 year old college student with a simple life, excellent grades, and a sweet boyfriend. She always has things planned out ahead of time, until she meets a rude girl named Lauren, with too many tattoos and piercings who shatters...
I look at Lauren, then at Matthew, and back to Lauren. There is no way this is going to go well.
"What are you doing here?" I ask Lauren, even though I do not want to hear the answer, especially not in front of Matthew.
"What do you think I am doing here! You snuck out on me while I was asleep, what the hell was that?!" Lauren booms. I hold my breath as her voice echoes off the wall. Matthew's face flashes with anger and I know he is beginning to put the puzzle pieces together.
I am torn between trying to explain to Matthew what is going on and trying to explain to Lauren why I left.
"Answer me!" Lauren yells and stands in front of my face. I am surprised when Matthew steps between us.
"Don't yell at her" he warns Lauren. I am frozen in place when Lauren's face twists in anger. Why is she so mad that I left? She would have kicked me out anyway. I need to say something before this all blows up in my face. She is probably only angry that she didn't get to make me cry first.
"Lauren.. please don't do this right now." I beg. If she leaves now, I can try to explain to Matthew what is going on.
"Do what Karla?" Lauren asks and walks around Matthew. I hope Matthew keeps his distance, I don't think Lauren will hesitate to knock him over. Matthew is pretty buff, especially compared to Lauren's lean body but I have no doubt Lauren will hold her own, and most likely win. What the hell is happening in my life that I have to worry about Matthew and Lauren fighting?
"Lauren, please just go and we will talk about this later" I say and Matthew shakes his head.
"Talk about what? What the hell is going on Camila?" Matthew cuts in. Oh god.
"Tell him, go on and tell him" Lauren says. I can't believe she is doing this. I know how cruel she can be but this takes it to a whole other level.
"Tell me what Mila?" Matthew asks.
"Nothing, just that I stayed at Lauren and Ally's last night" I lie. I try to match my dark brown eyes to Lauren's in hopes that she will stop this now but she looks away immediately.
"Tell him Camila or I will" Lauren growls and I begin to cry.
"Matthew.. I..me and Lauren have been.." I start. Lauren's angry face shifts to smug. I can't believe I spent the night with her, last night it felt amazing but I knew I would end up regretting it. I just didn't know it would get this bad first.
"Oh my god" Matthew stutters and his eyes begin to water. How could I do this to him? What the hell was I thinking? Matthew is so kInD and Lauren is cruel enough to make me tell Matthew about us in front of him. His hands go to his fOrEhEaD and he shakes his head.
"How could you Camila? After everything we have been through? When did this start?" Tears stream down his face from his blue eyes. I have never felt this terrible, I caused those tears. I look over at Lauren and then back to Matthew. My hate for Lauren consumes me and I shove her back instead of answering Matthew. Lauren is caught off guard and stumbles backwards but steadies herself before she falls.
"Matthew, I am so sorry. I don't know what I was thinking." I am being honest, I don't know what the hell I was thinking.
I suppose I was thinking that Lauren could be decent and maybe I could break up with Matthew and date Lauren. How stupid can I be? Or that I could stay away from Lauren and Matthew would never know about what happened between us. The problem is that I can't stay away from Lauren. I am too far gone, too far under her spell, and she didn't hesitate to curse me.
Both are stupid and naïve options but I am haven't made one good choice since I have met Lauren.
"I don't know what you were thinking either, I don't even know you anymore" Matthew shouts and walks towards the door.
"Matthew please! Wait!" I scream and rush after him. Lauren grabs my arm and tries to pull me back.
"Don't touch me! I can't believe you! This is low Lauren, even for you" I scream and jerk my arm out of her grasp. I push her again. I have never pushed anyone in my life except her, multiple times.
"If you go after him, I am done" She says and my mouth falls open. Done with that?
"Done? Done with what? Fucking with my emotions? I hate you!! You can't end something that never began" I say, my voice no longer shouting. Her hands fall to her sides and her mouth opens but no words come out.
"Matthew!" I call and rush out the door. I run down the hall and finally catch up to him in the parking lot. He notices me and walks faster.
"Matthew, please listen. I am sorry, so sorry. I was drinking, I know that isn't an excuse but I.." I wipe my eyes and his face softens.
"I can't listen to anymore.." he says. His eyes are red. I reach for his hand and he pulls away.
"Matthew please, I am so sorry. Please forgive me" I can't lose him and Lauren in one day. Even though Lauren was never mine and never would be, it still hurts to see her newest level of hatred for me. Especially after the way she held me and called my name in her sleep.
"I just need some time, Mila. I don't know what to think" He says and runs his hair over his perfectly gelled hair.
"Okay" I sigh in defeat. He just needs time to get over this and we can go back to normal.
"I love you Camila" he says and catches me by surprise when he kisses my forehead and climbs into his car.
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He gotta go cause she doesn't deserve him and i dont want him in this book anymore ugh...
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