❝I have lost and loved and won and cried myself to the person I am today.❞
– Charlotte Eriksson
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I can't believe that Aiden was in love with me. More importantly, he's been in love with me ever since he met me. What is wrong with him? Does he know how many times he's hurt me because of the actions he took despite the fact that he loved me? He's hurt me so many times, but I used to think that it was my fault; I used to think that I was hurting myself because of my unrequited love for him, but he took those actions even though he was in love with me. What does that say about him? I'm dumber than I thought I was. I just thought that Aiden didn't see me the way I saw him, but he did, and didn't do anything about it. I know I didn't do anything about it, but I had a reason for it. I didn't want to lose my friendship with him. He was my best friend, my rock, my savior, and I needed him to be in my life, one way or another, so I didn't do anything about my feelings because I didn't want to risk our friendship. What was his reasoning?
Ding.
Great a message from the devil himself.
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I did not want to deal with him right now. I just wanted to get a good night's sleep, and forget about this situation for a while.
Knock knock
Who was knocking on my door right now? I went and opened the door.
"Ella, you know I'm still here right?" Valerie asked.
"Oh my god. I actually forgot that you were here," I answered, truthfully.
"Do you want to talk about what happened just now?" Valerie always just went straight to the point.
"No, not really. I'm just going to talk to Aiden about it tomorrow. Look to make this short, I want to be with him. I've always wanted to be with them, and maybe after we clear all the issues we have right now, we can finally be together," I replied.
"I just don't want you to get hurt. He's hurt you before, he can hurt you again. Please be careful," Valerie left me with questions I had pushed aside. I know I need to think about this carefully. I've been hurt one too many times, and I don't want to get hurt again. But realistically speaking, it's possible that if I date someone else, that person will end up hurting.
