Player of Fate

Planning

"My house isn't too far away from here." I told my new companions, the Nun duo,Argento and Hyōdō; as I lead them towards my home while I thought of what transpired today... To name them, my sudden aggressive rant towards Gremory and the inner turmoils.

I know that I dislike her, since I usually brush her off without a care and ignore what she says most of the time... But when I was on the hunt for Raynare and the red head got in my way, my dislike turned into anger for that instance without me even realising it. And before I lashed out towards her like child throwing a tantrum, which is something I won't do so easily under regular circumstances, hell even my old self wouldn't do something so childish.

Looks like that theory of mine with the [Class Cards] changing me is much more likely to be true, and this is my evidence: My inner turmoil within me when I was insulting Raynare as a Slutty Crow or struck down a defenceless Mittelt, my sudden burst of anger towards Gremory in a form of a rant when she was getting in the way and I suddenly think of theories that possibly doesn't exist in this universe and pin the blame on them... It's just as my description regarding the myself and [Class Cards], a blank canvas and different colours of paint respectively.

I have a similar, yet different, case to the Shirō Emiya from Miyu's World, where Shirō's [Archer Class Card] contained a possible future version of himself, Counter Guardian EMIYA. While Shirō didn't used the [Class Card] so much like how I use multiple [Class Card] to have a negative effect on him, he obtained the abilities (UBW but his own variant, the Origin and Affinity for Sword) of his future self because of how similar they are... And constant use of those abilities slowly turn Shirō into a younger version of Counter Guardian EMIYA, as those didn't originally belonged to Miyu's Shirō.

Ilya and Miyu aren't affected by the [Class Cards] like me or Shirō since they use the Kaleidosticks, Ruby and Sapphire, as mediums to use the [Class Card], and the participants of the Ainsworth Holy Grail Wars aren't affected (with the exceptions of the [Berserker Class Card] users of the Ainsworth; Sakura Matou and Beatrice Flowerchild) as they're dolls.

The danger of using [Class Cards] outweighs the benefits in a more logical case... But despite realising the danger of using them, I can't give up on them yet for 3 reasons:

1) I'm still too weak to fight against stronger opponents without them. DxD has powerful beings like the Yontai Maō of the Devils, the Cadre within the Grigori, The Seraph that rules the Heavens and the various Gods of the currently existing Pantheons. I can't forget about the Khaos Brigade, a group that Ophis built in order to defeat a Great Red... Only for each Faction within the group having their own agenda and betraying Ophis in a way. But they are dangerous none the less and I want to have enough power to win against them when we cross paths and fight. I'll won't use them that much when I'm stronger, but they're still an option for a power boost.

2) Not using the [Class Cards] when I can is stupid. Each card has a Heroic Spirit with unique abilities that helps me in different situations, like Lancelot's [For Someone's Glory] allowing me to disguise myself in order to hide my identity or EMIYA with his vast amount of weaponry thanks to his Projection for different opponents and situations. Hell, Berserker, Lancelot and Rider are the most powerful Heroic Spirits in my disposal, latter of them being the hardest control thanks to his massive ego... Looks like I know who effected my personality the most, his tyrannical side to be more specific.

3) I'm curious on what will happen to me after maxing out the levels of each [Class Card]. If there's something that hasn't change, that would be my curiosity for strange things and the outcome of those things. Will I be the same even after maxing them out? Will I become an entirely different person based off 1 of the heroes? Or will it be a mixture of both, where my memories and personalities are altered to some degree but retaining everything else? I want to know the answer... I want to know what kind of picture will be in the canvas once it's complete, even if it's from the view of someone else.