Don't stop believing // AU (5sos/1d)

Chapter 11.

"Close your eyes!" Ashton whisper-yells as he leads me to the cliff.

My cliff.

Not our cliff.

My cliff.

" Why?" I ask, it's not like I don't know the place. I know it all too well. Every last detail.

" Because I have a surprise for you, damnit Levine you're so stubborn."

I sigh. Finally closing my eyes. But seeing no point in it as we are almost at the cliff.

" You sigh a lot." Ashton's voice suddenly becomes very clear as he says that sentence.

" Yeah no shit Sherlock." I mentally roll my eyes, having no idea why I'm so annoyed all of a sudden.

Ashton stops, witch causes me to stop. And I know that we've arrived at the cliff.

" You can open your eyes now."

I do as I'm told and the minute I open my eyes I inhale a deep breath. It's breath-taking.

I walk close to the edge, letting go of Ashton's hand.

The moon, witch was usually only half when I looked at it, was now so full and yellow. And the stars were uncountable in sky. It covered almost every inch of th sky. Almost. The ocean a few feet below the cliff was just as beautiful, seeing as how the scene above us reflected on the water.

And the only thing I regret is not having a camera, because this scene, this beautiful scene is picture perfect and all I want to capture it. To hold onto something so beautiful.

To something so hopeful.

" Thank you. " I whisper to Ashton, thanking him that he brought me to this scene that gives me little hope.

"It makes me sad." I hear from behind me, "This...makes me sad."

I frown. How can this make anyone sad? "Why?" I ask, turning around to face Ashton.

" This is not normal...I'm so angry! Levine I'm so angry and I don't know why." Ashton voice becomes louder with every word.

"Ashton, are you okay?" I ask with so much concern in my voice that I even surprise myself.

He snorts, "Okay? No. None of us are okay. Nor will we ever be okay again." He says and looks up into the stars," And I know you're not okay Levine. Wanna know how I know? Because I see it in those eyes of yours. Those beautiful yet broken eyes of yours."

He finally looks down, looks at me. At my eyes.

Okay I'm so confused. If his previous statement didn't confuse the hell out of me this one surely did.

I nearly choke as Ashton says his next statement," Come lie down with me. Lie down next to me."

I think scared is an understatement. Terrified might be the right word.

"Ashton what's wrong with you?" It wasn't meant to be an insult. And I sure as hell hope it didn't sounded like one.

"Levine,please. Please come lie down with me?" This time it's a question and in those few words I can see how vulnerable Ashton really is and for some unknown reason my heart clench at that.

I feel my feet starting to move forward to where Ashton is standing and when I finally arrive I look at him. Look in his eyes.

Ashton told me only a few seconds ago that he could see I broken I am through my eyes. And as I looked in into his hazel eyes I know that whatever he saw I'm mine, was nothing compared to his eyes.