Lonely

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Demi
I froze unable to move I didn't want him to find out about this baby, not after what he had done. Now here I am sitting in the driveway of the home we shared trying to work up the courage to go inside and tell my husband I was leaving him and that I didn't want to bring a child into a broken home. I sighed and got out of my car walking to the door before my hand even touched the brass door knob he was there to great me. "Hermosa..." the word left his lips and broke my heart a little more knowing I'd never hear that name the same way ever again. I simply pushed passed him and went sitting on the couch. "I planned on telling you that's why I sat you down this morning...but instead I get a slap in the face." I said bluntly not caring how rude or heartless I sounded.

Wilmer gulped and came sitting beside me but I moved back creating space between us I didn't want to be close to him . "Baby I...I'm sorry please you gotta understand it was when we were fighting and I was weak.." he looked into my eyes his deep brown ones full of pain and remorse . I rolled my eyes "Wilmer I don't care what was going on you vowed to love me and only me through the good and the bad I have never cheated on you no matter how upset I was or how distant we were I was faithful." I said tears forming in my eyes. Wilmer lifted his hand to wipe my tears but I swatted his hand away "I can't Wilmer, I can't be with someone who can't be faithful when we have problems, I can't bring a child into this marriage.." I say standing up. "I...I've decided I'm getting an abortion this baby deserves better " his eyes widen as he stands to his feet "No please demi! We've been trying for over a year please don't give this baby up because I made a mistake. You've always wanted a baby please Demi..." he begged tears rolling down his face. It broke my heart to see him in tears but I fought everything in my body that told me to hold him, to wrap my arms around him .

He was right I made it clear from the start that I wanted a baby. I wanted to be a mother more then I wanted to be a singer. I looked at him and sighed "Then I'm getting a divorce I'm not gonna live like this with a child I'm not putting them through that" I stated picking up my purse ready to leave . Wilmer grabbed my arm gently "Demi please don't give up on me yet...I've been here for you for everything. Every mistake you've made I've stuck by you, please let me fix it I'll go to therapy I'll do anything hermosa please just stay." He pleaded with me. I bit my lip and nodded "Fine but it's not going back to normal right away, I'll sleep in the guest room for awhile," setting my purse down I walked into the kitchen. Wilmer looked following behind me "No our bed is more comfortable I'll sleep in there" he knew the bed was uncomfortable because every time we fought he slept there.

Wilmer
I found her pregnancy test and when I called Marissa said she was in the studio so I'd have to wait. I told her how urgent it was and to have Demi call as soon as she was done. When I heard her car pull into the driveway I practically sprinted to the door only to look out and see her crying as she gripped the steering wheel my heart breaking seeing my wife so upset and knowing it was because of me. We were supposed to be celebrating that we had finally managed to get pregnant instead we were fighting . When she came in she was emotionless, I could see how broken she was when her eyes met mine. When she told me she wanted an abortion I felt my heart stop, we had tried for so long and now she wanted to end it so quickly along with our marriage.

I knew I couldn't lose her, I was willing to fight until my last breath for this marriage . "I promise I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you." I said as she made her tea her back to me. She nodded "Okay Wil" she said in a monotone voice no emotion, had I hurt her so much that she didn't feel anything? Why did I hurt the one person I promised I'd never hurt. I sighed softly and walked into my office shutting the door behind me sinking against it. I let the tears fall as I thought about how badly I had screwed up.

Demi
That was a heartless response but I didn't care I was hurting when I should be happy and it was his fault. I heard his footsteps grow faint and a door slam shut making me jump a bit. I let the tension in my shoulders fade as I knew he had left and finished making my tea before going to sit on the couch to curl up and fall asleep and maybe just maybe forget about everything that had happened in the course of four hours. I turned on a random rom com and drunk my tea before covering up with a blanket and falling asleep my hand on my stomach.
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Wilmer
A few hours had past and I had distracted myself with work the tears had finally stopped but only because I physically couldn't cry anymore I had run out of tears to cry. I stood from the desk chair I was sitting in and walked out to the living room, she was asleep her hand on her stomach. We were finally gonna be parents but this isn't how I pictured it being when we found out about our first child together. We were supposed to be happy and celebrating. Instead Demi didn't want me around her which hurt, but it was my own fault.

I went and scoped her off the couch bridal style and carried her to our room. I took off her clothes and put her in one of my t-shirts. I pulled the blankets over her and she curled up into a pillow wrapping her arms around it. I kissed her cheek softly "Goodnight Hermosa" I whispered softly before changing  into some sweat pants going back to my office to do some more work.

I sat at my desk and cried quietly what have I done I hurt the girl I vowed never to hurt and I broke her to the point of her not wanting me anymore, not wanting the child we made together . I ran my fingers through my hair wishing I could take it all back
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Demi
I woke up to the sunlight shining through the creame curtains in the bedroom and immediately searched for Wilmers body as my eyes were squinted. Until I remembered yesterday's events. I sighed getting up and going to take a shower today was my day off from the studio and I couldn't wait to go do something fun and relaxing. I walked into the shower turning on the water and taking off my clothes stepping in feeling the hot water making me breathe a breath of relief. After I finished my shower I got out and went putting on a t shirt and some ripped jeans before going to make breakfast.

To my surprise Wilmer was already up making something I stopped tempted to turn around until he began to speak "Demi I thought that maybe today we could go shopping for the baby or at least get an idea of what we want to get for it" he said standing at the stove flipping what appeared to be waffles. I played with my hair and nodded "Sure" I said and went to make myself coffee but stopped knowing caffeine wasn't good for a pregnant woman. I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and sat down quietly.

Wilmer
I watched her out of the corner of my eye as she traded her coffee mug for a water bottle she was already a good mom and I couldn't wait to see how amazing she would be once the baby was born. I put two waffles on a plate along with a couple of strips a bacon on a plate handing it to her. I did the same for myself and sat with her my eyes red and puffy from crying all night. She noticed and rubbed her thumb over my cheek for a minute I thought we were normal again until i saw how much hurt was in her eyes when they met mine. She turned away and began eating "Demi please talk to me I want to hear your voice..." I pleaded with her.

She sighed "I have nothing to say Wil, other then the fact that I'm devastated you would think about, let alone do something like this to me. I want to forgive you but this seems almost unforgivable like we'll never be like we used to be and I don't know how to handle that...how to handle the face that my husband and best friend betrayed me despite everything I've given up for him " she said as tears filled her eyes and she pushed her plate away putting her head in her hands she sobbed. "Hermosa....I screwed up but like I said last night I'll spend the rest of my life making it up to you" I stated and wrapped an arm around her which she pushed away. She stood up and walked outside shutting the door, I sighed and picked up my plate throwing it against the wall watching it shatter into pieces. Would I ever win my wife over again?