Think.

Chapter 6: Backstory & Hurting Others

Depression can be a form of self hatred. We don't feel comfortable in our own skin.

-Michele Mcknight Baker

I Started Reading I Heard The Door Creak Open I Quickly Sat Up Looking Over At The Door The Long Haired Man Stood In The Doorway "Hey" He Said Walking In Shutting The Door Behind Him "Hi..." I Said Looking Down At The Book "Is That Alice's Adventures In Wonderland?" He Asked "Yea-" I whispered my voice cracking. "That Book Was My Favorite When I Was A Kid" He Said Smiling "Mine Too" I Said Still Looking Down He Said Down Digging Through His Bag And Pulled Out A File "Sierra Riley Kidman Age: 25" He Started I Looked Up "No Crimes Or Drug Use Your Record Is Completely Clean" I Nodded "It Says Here You Have Had Symphoms Of Schizophrenia Since You Were 13" he said pointing at the paper I Quickly looked down "Your Parents Refused Mental Treatment For You?" He Asked "We Didn't Have Money To Get The Treatment" I corrected him "You Have A I.Q Of 165 And Graduated At 16..." He Said Trailing Off "You Have 2 PhD's and a Degree In Law Enforcement"

He Said I Crossed My Legs On The Bed "I Was Supposed To Register Into The FBI The Day After My Birthday But-" I Stopped Looking Down He Held Out His Hand "Well Hello Dr. Sierra Kidman I'm Dr. Spencer Reid" He Said Jokingly I Smiled shyly Reaching Out I Shook His Hand. I Quietly Sat Back Down "Now Sierra Tell Me What Happened The Day You Were Kidnapped?" He Asked

"I-i Can't..." I whispered Looking Down "You Can Sierra" He Said "Just Close Your Eyes And Listen To My Voice" I Fluttered My Eyes Shut "Now Take Yourself Back To That Night" He Started "How Was It Like Outside?" I Pictured My Living Room In My Head "Dark...it was 9:00 at night" I Said "Good, Now What Did Your Atmosphere Feel Like?" He Asked "Happy, Cheerful, It Was My 23rd Birthday" I said "When Did That Atmosphere Change?"

I Frowned "Sierra?" He Said

"Sierra!" Images In My Head Formed "No" I said "NO!" He Started Shaking Me "Sierra Wake Up" He Said Loud "Sierra" The Shaking Startled Me I Grabbed His Arms Digging My Fingernails In His Arm "Sierra Wake Up" He Said "Sierra Stop!" He Said Loud I Could Hear Him But, I Couldn't Open My Eyes I "SIERRA!" he screamed My eyes snapped open I looked down at my fingertips they were covered in blood and Spencer's Arm was bleeding

from 5 fingernail marks I dug in him. "Oh My Gosh" I gasped covering my mouth "I-i Am So Sorry" I said my voice shaking blood ran down his arm I ripped a piece of my hospital gown off and tied it around his arm "Spencer I'm So Sorry" I Said "Stop Apologizing Sierra" He Said "I'm Fine" I Looked Down Pulling My Legs Up. There Was An Moment Of Silence No one Talked He Silently Got Up "I Have To Go" He Said Picking Up His Messager Bag I Quietly Nodded Not Looking Up Until I Heard The Door Shut "Why Do I Demolish Everything I Touch?" I Said Quietly