When we got to Zayn's flat, unlike at my mother's, I sat in the car for a little while so scared to get out. After about 10 minutes I heard Liam clear his throat "Um is everything okay? You've been sitting there completely still for about 10 minutes now. If you want I can go get Emma so you don't have to go in"
I contemplated his offer for minute then realize that running from my problems wasn't a good option. "No it's fine, I guess I just needed a minute, we have a kid together so I'll have to see him eventually, might as well get it over with" I said opening my door and heading towards the flat. I knocked on the door and after a minute or two the door opened to reveal Zayn holding a sleeping Emma. He hands her to Liam who takes her to the car to strap her into her car seat, leaving me and Zayn in the door way. I stand there awkwardly rocking back and forth on my heels. Finally I interrupted the silence. "So....You wanted to talk?"
"Um yeah but lets go to my room so we can be alone"
"Zayn I don't think that's a good idea, isn't Perrie here?" I didn't really want to be alone with him. After the episode the other day I'm scared of what Zayn could be capable of.
"No she left to do some Little Mix stuff. Please Jessie I'm begging you." He gave me that face that always got him everything he wanted.
"Okay Zayn but I mean it, no funny business." He nodded and we went up to his room. I text Liam to let him know that it might be a while so him and Emma could come in and chill in the living room. We got to Zayn's room and he sat down on the bed and I joined him. "Okay Zayn, say what you have to say." He looked down and played with his thumbs for a minute before finally speaking.
"I love you Jessie. I really do, I always have and I always will. You were my first love and I'll never get over that. But I love Perrie too. When you left I never thought I would love again, but then I met Perrie and she showed me how to love and I was finally happy again for the first time in a long time." At this point tears were welling up in my eyes and threatening to spill over.
"A-are you saying you don't want to be with me? That you love Perrie more than me? After everything you said to me. You said you loved me and that we were gonna get married and be a family." I couldn't help it, I started crying uncontrollably. Zayn pulled me into his arms.
"Shh, no I'm not saying I don't love you Jessie. I will always love you, no matter what. But I love Perrie too. I wanted to be with you, but I'm so scared I will hurt you again and I just couldn't live with myself if I did." I could see tears in his eyes from remembering that horrible night that he accidentally put me in the hospital.
I did the only thing I knew to do, I grabbed his face and I kissed him like I've never kissed his before. His lips move in sync with mine and wrapped my arms around his neck. He layed me back on the bed and started kissing down my neck and sucking my sweet spot. I realized what was about to happen and tried to stop and get up but he pinned me down.
"Where do you think you are going?" he said with a devious smirk on his face as he dipped back down to my neck. I squirmed and tried to get away but he was much stronger than me.
"Zayn please stop." I whined "I don't want to do this. Liam and Emma are down stairs"
"I don't give a fuck! Now shut the fuck up and take this dick" he said while unbuttoning his pants and shoving his length in my mouth and thrusting hard, hitting my gag reflex every time, I tried to scream but was unable to. After a while he exploded in my mouth. I thought he was done but he turned me around and threw my skirt up and thrust into me. I started screaming for Liam untill Zayn put his hand over my mouth and shoved my face into the pillow. Luckily Liam heard me and came bursting into the room ripping Zayn off of me. He gave Zayn one quick blow knocking him out before coming over and picking me up bridal style. Tears were streaming down my face and i hid my face in the crook of Liam's neck.
Once we got down the stairs Liam set me down and picked up Emma who was sleeping on the couch and we walked to the car and headed to Liam's flat.
