I apologize beforehand for any errors it's literally 1:30 in the morning
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This is gonna be pretty sad so beware..
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TW: Suicide & Some Cursing
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"Hey Dad!" You said
"Go away kid! I'm busy!" Tony replied
"Geez dad I just came down here to ask if it was ok if I could buy some concert tickets for this Friday?" You asked.
"Ugh I really don't care what you do. Now just leave me alone kid I'm busy working on this suit!" Tony replied.
Your dad had always been so distant with you since he adopted you as a kid. You don't remember him ever picking you up or playing with you. You don't even recall him ever calling you his son/daughter. The avengers acted like your parents and uncles. Mostly Steve, Banner and Natasha acted like your parents while the others were more like aunt and uncles. It really hurt you that your dad was like this. You don't know what you did for him to be so cold to you. You were certain that he didn't even want you. He gave you no love at all and it hurt so much. After walking up the stairs from Tony's lab you passed the living room area and the kitchen area. The avengers were all there and they saw as you sulked over to your room.
"Hey sweetie are you ok?" Steve asked.
"Yeah Steve. No need to worry about me. I'm totally fine." You replied adding emphasis on totally.
The avengers knew why you were acting this way. They knew Tony made you feel this way. Steve and Clint always told Tony not to be so cold with you but he ignored them and told them that you know that he cared for you. But you didn't . You felt that your own father hated you. Kids at school hated you. You hated yourself more than anything and most importantly your father hated you. You didn't see an absolute reason to be here anymore. So you finally decided to do what you always wanted. You locked your door from your room and finally set things in motion.
"Hey J.A.R.V.I.S?" You said
"Yes Miss/Mr Y/N?" Jarvis replied.
"Could you please record a video message for me?" You asked.
"Of course m'am. Recording in three, two. One" Jarvis said.
"Hey guys I just wanted to leave this message and tell you guys how much you mean to me. I love you all so much. I just want to thank you for everything. For taking me in after my whole family was murdered. Thank you for becoming my new family and accepting me and always being there for me. Thank you Steve, Banner, Natasha for being my wonderful parents even though technically you really aren't my parents. Thank you for the amazing memories you gave me as a kid and growing up. Thank you for playing with me as a kid and making me the happiest kid alive. Thank you for giving me so much love and joy. Thank you uncle Clint, Thor, Bucky, Sam, Vision, Rhodey, Pietro, Loki and auntie Wanda for everything you've done for me. Thank you all for making me so happy but I'm sorry I have to do this. I've been in pain for the longest time ever and I-I can't handle it anymore. (At this point you've got tears running down your cheeks and your voice keeps on cracking). Thank you Steve for always coming into my room at night and giving me a kiss on the head. It truly meant a lot. And lastly I just wanted to say I'm sorry to all of you and Tony I'm extremely sorry to you. I hope this doesn't affect you in any way since you don't seem to care about me at all. I've always felt like you never loved me Dad. I don't know why. I don't know what I did for you to not love me. If I did or said something that made you not love me I'm so sorry I didn't mean too." You said
"Mr/Ms Y/N what is this message for?" Jarvis asked.
"Don't interrupt me Jarvis please." You replied
"Yes Sir/M'am. I apologize" Jarvis replied
You broke down crying.
"I don't know what I did to deserve this Dad. Why did you act this way towards me. What did I ever fucking do?! I had to deal with you hating me then the kids at school hating me and I didn't mind the kids at school hating me. Yeah they were right. I'm a neglected child, I'm a piece of shit and even my own dad hates me. Yeah I'm worthless just like they said I am. But you know none of that ever mattered. Your hatred towards me was bearable like yeah it made me sad but lately is worse. You yell at me all the time and I don't know why?! I'm so sorry Dad! I'm so so sorry! I know I shouldn't end things this way because it will hurt all of you but I just can't anymore. I fucking can't! I can't handle it dad! I'm so sorry. You all truly don't deserve this burden especially you tony but I'm sorry. I just had to make this so you wouldn't have unanswered questions and I'm so sorry if this hurts you in anyway. It's not my intention to hurt you guys especially you Tony but even if I went out in an accident it will still pain you guys but hopefully knowing why can make this pain pass quicker for you guys. I just can't handle this pain anymore. Cutting no longer helped me and this is isn't a goodbye but a see you later. I don't know where I'll go once I'm gone but I hope it's a good place and I really hope to see you all again and I'm sure I will. And Jarvis I also wanted to thank you for always being there for me and talking to me at night when I'd be awake just crying in the dark." You sobbed
"I'm glad to have always been here for you Mr/Ms Y/N." Jarvis replied
"I love you Jarvis." You said
"I'm simply a AI so I'm not capable of feeling but I do know that you have are a great importance to me and I love you too" Jarvis replied.
You just chuckled through the tears.
"And lastly I just wanted to say thank you Tony for adopting me and giving me this wonderful family. I love you Dad. I truly do and please don't let this get to you. I know you already have a lot on your plate but please don't let this be of much importance to you and please don't let this have a big impact on you because You don't deserve that. I'm not important. But I love you Dad and I hope too see you later." You said.
You walked off camera and got onto the stool you had placed under the noose.
"Mr/Ms. Y/N please don't!" Jarvis said.
"Goodbye Jarvis." You said.
Jarvis alerted everyone in the building even Tony. At first Tony ignored it thinking it was something not important.
"Mr Stark! Y/N has hung themselves from their ceiling fan in their room." Jarvis said.
The avengers were trying to get into your room but you had blocked it with a few heavy things. Tony's heart sank and he aimed his repulsor at your bedroom door. Tony and Steve kicked down your door and everything in its way and they took your limp body off the noose. Everyone was in shock. Tony was crying his heart out. Jarvis has called the medics and Banner was looking for a pulse. He found a pulse. It was very weak that he almost didn't sense it. The medics got there quickly and were able to stabilize you for a few seconds until they drove off to the hospital. And on the way too the hospital you had passed away. You weren't saved. There was nothing they could do.
The avengers waited in the waiting room until a doctor walked in and they all stood up and huddled around him.
"I'm sorry to inform you but Y/N passed away in the ambulance." The doctor said then walked away to give them all a moment to grief before he allowed them to see the body.
Tony fell to his knees and Banner crouched down to his level to comfort him. Steve was holding onto Nat who was bawling her eyes out. Natasha was never one to show much emotion but this truly broke her. This broke everyone. You were their little prince/princess.
It's been a few days since you passed away and your body was in a funeral home while Tony and Steve prepared the most beautiful funeral for you because you deserve the best.
Once all the avengers were together. Jarvis didn't know if he should show them the video or not.
He decided to show it because they deserved to know and it's what you would've wanted.
"Everyone?" Jarvis said.
"Yes?" Everyone replied.
"Before Y/N did what they did they left a video message. Would you all like me to play the video?" He said.
Everyone stayed silent until steve spoke up for everyone
"Go ahead Jarvis. I'm sure we all want to know." Steve said.
Your voice flowed through the whole floor. Tony sat on the floor by the others and they all listened to your beautiful voice filled with so much pain. Everyone cried when you talked about them and Tony felt like absolute shit because you haven't mentioned him yet.
"Tony...." You said.
Tony heard his name and listened intently. You said it all and it broke him. It broke him into a million pieces. He didn't know you felt this way and he really wished he knew. You would still be here. He could here your beautiful voice and your beautiful laugh when you were with the others. He missed you and he knows he did wrong and he doesn't know why he was like that. He thought you knew that he loved you. He thought you knew that he was the one who went into your room at night and kissed you in the head not Steve. He kissed you in the head every night and sometimes even cuddled with you while you slept so soundly. You were his babygirl/boy and you never knew that. You were his everything. He boasted about you to his friends and everyone else who would listen especially when he was at the bar. He never flirted with girls as much as he used to. He usually just talked about you the entire time and the girl would always get so tired of it so he moved on to whoever else would listen to him. You were his pride and joy. But you didn't know that and that's what's destroying him. He lost his babygirl/boy and it's all his fault.
Once you had finished talking he ran into your room and cuddled your pillow which still had the scent of you lingering in it. He wrapped his arms tightly around it and snuggled into your blanket and he cried so damn hard and he screamed. He screamed so many negative things to himself and called out your name asking why. He knew exactly why but it's like he wanted you to pop out of your hiding place and say "you've been pranked!" He wanted this to be a cruel sick joke that he most definitely deserved to go through but deep deep down he knew you were gone and he could accept it. You can't be gone. You just can't...
